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Sunday Apr 03, 2005

Apr 3, 2005
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well, i didnt get the job.

its not really a big deal, but it really has me questioning my life. i know im still young, only 23, but i feel like im going nowhere with my life.

some of my friends have real careers going, and families with kids and everything, and im still stuck living paycheck to paycheck in a meaningless job.

i mean, i get paid to count money to people who are pissed off because they lost all of their money on the damned slot machines. how meaningful can this possibly be? it certainly doesnt pay very well. it doesnt pay bad at all, but not what i should be making by now.

i havent gone to back to school yet, which i was supposed to do this past october. since graduating high school, i have twice been accepted to very excellent art schools, and twice did not attend.

and on top of this, the girl i want to be with, is with someone else, and although she complains about him a lot, if she really wanted him gone, he'd be gone already.

this is the story of my life. im not exactly thrilled about how my life works, but i've accepted it. maybe that is my problem.

i've accepted it.

if i wasnt so accustomed to how my life goes, i would be able to do something about it.

who knows. maybe one day, hopefully soon, i'll have all this shit figured out, and i'll get my life actually started.

we'll see.

until next time

thelastbeliever:
Yeah my friend has quite a talent doesn't he...

I'm at exactly the same position with my life. I turn 23 this year and it's really made me think. Hence my life spring cleaning...

Shame about the job mate. There will be others...
Apr 4, 2005
thelastbeliever:
Yeah i know man. Thanks, it's just going to take some time smile
Apr 6, 2005

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