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cyanide81

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Monday Sep 03, 2012

Sep 3, 2012
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Oh god I can't wait to get my medical insurance. I desperately need some kind of anti depressant, and I really need to start therapy. I am only getting worse and worse.

I'm completely alone in the world. I feel like no one understands me, and most people don't like me.

I'm at the lowest point I've ever been in my life. Completely miserable. I feel like I don't deserve to have anything good happen to me.

And I hate going on about it on here. It's no one else's problem but mine. I'm aware there are people in this world who have it way worse than I do. But I don't have any other place to vent but here. Even here I don't feel like I can vent everything. And I can't burden anyone with my problems. Why should they care, they have their own issues to worry about. It would be selfish of me to drop my issues in anyone. At least a therapist is getting paid to do it

I just hate my life, I hate myself. Makes me understand why most people I meet hate me
niobe:
I don't hate you. You know this. In fact, I really like you. I have tried reaching out to you several times. I wish I could do more for you. I'm here for you. I understand you and I like you.

I know what it feels like to be alone. I know what it feels like to be miserable.

I'm here.

*hugs*
Sep 3, 2012
yakdeculture:
I wish I had something inspirational to say... "hang in there" is really tired and clich.

All I can say is vent all you want! Just get it the fuck out. Even if nobody reads it- at least it's out of your system.
Sep 4, 2012

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