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Friday Jan 13, 2012

Jan 13, 2012
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My mom was discharged today! She is currently resting quite happily in her own bed.

This has been the longest10 days of my life. And while im still not 100% sure if i believe in God or not, i definitly believe that something amazing happened to her in that hospital. If it was God, or science, or God working through science, i dont care. what matters to me most is that a week ago, i was convinced i was going to lose my mom, and here i am today hopeful for the future.

It has helped me open my eyes a little, and i realize that all of the whining i do about the state of my life is meaningless. I have what matters to me in life, and anything i want that i dont have, it is my fault that i dont have it, and i just need to work harder to achieve my goals.
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cadavre:
I know that feeling VERY well.
Jan 14, 2012
marvel:
That must've been really scary to think you were going to lose your mom. I'm so glad she's doing better.

There's a quote from Dogma that I love, it goes: "...it doesn't matter what you have faith in, just that you have faith." Personally, I have faith in something bigger - I just don't know exactly what that is. I'm okay with that.

Thanks for welcoming me back smile
Jan 18, 2012

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