I actually broke down and cried tonight. From stress. I only got 1 1/2 hour of free time to myself today. The rest was devoted to work and sleep. And that's how I see my next few weeks going. God dammit I've ruined my life and it feels like there's no way to fix anything. I just feel like I'm in so deep that I can't see any sunlight.
On my drive home tonight, I thought about driving off the road so many times. I would never do anything like that, but it's scaring me that I'm having these thoughts so much. And I can't afford insurance to go see a doctor for medication.
I am so lost and confused and hurt and lonely and hopeless.
And I can only talk about it in here because I'm afraid to talk about these things with my family.
On my drive home tonight, I thought about driving off the road so many times. I would never do anything like that, but it's scaring me that I'm having these thoughts so much. And I can't afford insurance to go see a doctor for medication.
I am so lost and confused and hurt and lonely and hopeless.
And I can only talk about it in here because I'm afraid to talk about these things with my family.
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I'm glad you do have SG as a safe place to vent.
(((love and hugs)))