been awhile, and proving my last blog's point, i am in fact alive! i'm a shitty online friend, i dont get in touch with any online friends, and i dont comment on their blogs, and im sorry! but if it makes anyone feel better, i've been doing that in real life to my real friends too
i guess that really shouldnt make anyone feel better, but its true I'm becoming a shut in, and even though i have all sorts of desires and wishes to become active, healthy, express my creativity, for some reason, this past year or so, i just havent had any motivation to do anything. i go to work, i come home, i sleep. ocassionally i pay bills. but thats mostly what my life consists of these days.
soo, if anyone cares, i'm sorry!
now, despite the tone of what i just wrote, im not really depressed. at least, not the depression im used to. im not really all that sad. just kinda numb maybe? i dunno how to describe it really. im not really happy or sad.
i'll get over it sooner or later, i hope!
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as a side note, i do ocassionally get out of the house, not often enough, but i do. I went to the San Diego County Fair last week, and depending on whether or not the state decides to sell the fairgrounds, that might be the last one of its kind, so i decided i had to go. besides, i had free tickets.
didnt do much other than walk around with a friend of mine and look at people selling shit, and check out different exhibits. Didnt go on any rides or play any carnival games though, too expensive. food and drinks were expensive enough. I also spent a great deal of time looking for a place ont he fairgrounds that sold sunblock, ut everywhere was sold out, except for one place, but they took cash only, and i didnt want to spend $8 to take money out of the atm. so i just lived with it. Got a pretty good sunburn. and by good, i mean FUCKING OW.
Took some photos too. not as many as i would have liked, but heres some:
edit: i dont know why my fucking photos never want to resize when i put then in my blog
i guess that really shouldnt make anyone feel better, but its true I'm becoming a shut in, and even though i have all sorts of desires and wishes to become active, healthy, express my creativity, for some reason, this past year or so, i just havent had any motivation to do anything. i go to work, i come home, i sleep. ocassionally i pay bills. but thats mostly what my life consists of these days.
soo, if anyone cares, i'm sorry!
now, despite the tone of what i just wrote, im not really depressed. at least, not the depression im used to. im not really all that sad. just kinda numb maybe? i dunno how to describe it really. im not really happy or sad.
i'll get over it sooner or later, i hope!
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as a side note, i do ocassionally get out of the house, not often enough, but i do. I went to the San Diego County Fair last week, and depending on whether or not the state decides to sell the fairgrounds, that might be the last one of its kind, so i decided i had to go. besides, i had free tickets.
didnt do much other than walk around with a friend of mine and look at people selling shit, and check out different exhibits. Didnt go on any rides or play any carnival games though, too expensive. food and drinks were expensive enough. I also spent a great deal of time looking for a place ont he fairgrounds that sold sunblock, ut everywhere was sold out, except for one place, but they took cash only, and i didnt want to spend $8 to take money out of the atm. so i just lived with it. Got a pretty good sunburn. and by good, i mean FUCKING OW.
Took some photos too. not as many as i would have liked, but heres some:
edit: i dont know why my fucking photos never want to resize when i put then in my blog
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sometimes if you hit the edit button on ur blog then hit edit again it will resize.