why am i the worlds doormat?
evry girl ive ever dated has just totally fucked with me. its pathetic really.
i just found out that my ex is now engaged to my replacement.
She told me that she broke up with me because i wanted too much, and that i probably had marriage in mind. and thats not what shes looking for. she doesnt want marriage, or a serious relationship. Now, we only dated a short time, so i did NOT have it in mind. sure, it would be something to look forward to down the line, but not something i was itching at the trigger for.
But this proves she was just fucking lying to me. They all fucking lie to me. One of the first dates we had, we talked about previous relationships, and i told her, thats all i want from anyone, is to tell me the truth. if im not your type, TELL ME. dont make some bullshit story up to make me "feel better". im too smart for that shit, i ALWAYS figure it out.
now, im ready to just give up on everything. im not successful in love, work, friends, hobbies, anything. Does anyone reading this have ANY idea how it feels to be nearly 25, and NEVER had anyone (family aside) tell me they love me? No one does, and it appears no one ever will.
so, if i dont update again, nice knowing you all, as little as i did
evry girl ive ever dated has just totally fucked with me. its pathetic really.
i just found out that my ex is now engaged to my replacement.
She told me that she broke up with me because i wanted too much, and that i probably had marriage in mind. and thats not what shes looking for. she doesnt want marriage, or a serious relationship. Now, we only dated a short time, so i did NOT have it in mind. sure, it would be something to look forward to down the line, but not something i was itching at the trigger for.
But this proves she was just fucking lying to me. They all fucking lie to me. One of the first dates we had, we talked about previous relationships, and i told her, thats all i want from anyone, is to tell me the truth. if im not your type, TELL ME. dont make some bullshit story up to make me "feel better". im too smart for that shit, i ALWAYS figure it out.
now, im ready to just give up on everything. im not successful in love, work, friends, hobbies, anything. Does anyone reading this have ANY idea how it feels to be nearly 25, and NEVER had anyone (family aside) tell me they love me? No one does, and it appears no one ever will.
so, if i dont update again, nice knowing you all, as little as i did
user304975207:
seriously. if you need someone to talk to, im here. i dont know exactly how all of that feels....but i know how a lot of bad shit feels.
seriously. if you need someone to talk to, im here. i dont know exactly how all of that feels....but i know how a lot of bad shit feels. 
einahpets:
This is totally random, but I came across your journal and felt the need to comment. I go through the whole "oh my god, i'm going to alone forever and i'm never going to have a good career, etc" thing all the time. I just hope you're feeling better.