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Saturday Apr 08, 2006

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sooo, i dunno. i guess things are getting better.

ive been in a better mood lately.

work is getting better, im not faling victim to my social anxiety as much there, and i might be up for a promotion soon.


but i still cant get over my ex. im not obsessing over it like i was, but i still think about it pretty often each day.

we only went out for a few months, but it was the closest ive ever come to feeling loved (aside from family and friends love).

its a very tough thing to have never been loved by anyone. because of my shyness and self esteem, no one really seems to give me a chance, and when someone does, i always fuck it up by crawling back into my shell.

but, im working on it, and like i said before, i really feel like im making progress towards a higher self esteem. maybe little by little, but progress nonetheless.
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kindle:
Getting over someone can be one of that hardest things to do. I'm still trying but I fail there. I have backed off a whole bunch but he's always in my head somewhere and it's been a few months now. It will come for you eventually, keep faith.

Congrats on the promotion! That's always a good feeling when someone notices the hard work you do.
Apr 8, 2006
plaidhangover:
hey at least you are trying... most people dont even try!
Apr 8, 2006

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