Hey guys!
I thought....maybe you´d enjoy some update on my life....and some ASS!!! Haha
Well, right now I model a lot, 2-3 times per week, and I´ll probably go to New York next year to model there as well (If there are some badass punk people reading this here, please let me know, I want to get wasted at Manitoba´s!!!). Modelling is no big deal, life as always, lol.
But what is totally NEW and AMAZING is that I have fallen in love again! After that fuck up with my last boyfriend, I thought I´d never be able to love again, but after some months of whoring around (which wasn´t a bad experience though! Sexual freedom and shit...YESSS!!!) I started feeling lonely and well, suddenly HE was there and I thought he´d only stay for a week or two, but he´s still with me although I haven´t even tried to hide the little psycho inside me. I´ve told him about my insecurities, issues and anxieties and he really tries to give me what I need. I know sometimes it´s hard for him, because he is a very independant person and I am such a clingy crybaby, but we talk a lot and he understands what I´ve been through.
Some days ago we were having a whatsapp-conversation and he just disappeared, all of a sudden, without explanation. Normally my fucking seperation anxiety would now kick in, I´d scroll up and read what I´ve written him, wonder if that was stupid or boring or if I said something wrong, panic that I´d never hear from him again and fall into a black hole. But this time I stayed all cool and relaxed! I started cleaning the bathroom and was waiting for the moment when I´d break down in tears, but I DIDN´T!!! and after some hours I got a message: "I´m so sorry, Babe. My phone just froze all of a sudden and I wasn´t able to restart it. I hope I didn´t hurt you, I´m really sorry!" And no, I was cool. I still can´t believe it myself. I don´t know, but somehow I feel "at home" with this guy and I trust him so much. I love him like crazy and feel so loved in return.
Okay okay, enough. Sorry for bothering you with my love-story, haha, but I´m just so fucking happy. Well, now enjoy some ass or whatever. Good night, guys! I love you!
