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cyanide

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I´m sorry, but...

Jun 10, 2014
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Hey guys, I´m so sorry...I know I´ve been off for quite some time, but the truth is that I´m dealing with a very hard break-up right now and was busy chain-smoking, drinking and crying like a baby...it´s all so unfair, confusing and I don´t really know how to continue. We are still in touch every day but I don´t know where this is going to.

Well, I don´t wanna go into too much detail, but it´s not only that he has broken up with me...well, he hacked my facebook- and email-accounts, changed all my passwords, sent a guy I had a crush on when I was a teen, pics I´d have preferred he wouldn´t have seen (I never had anything with that guy!!!) and called me a slut on his page. I swear I never cheated on him, but he´s not able to believe and trust me....I really went through hell last week and still can´t believe what has happened...well...I guess you all know how it feels....but hey,

I´ve met a lot of people those last days, drunk like a motherfucker and now I swear: I´m back!!!

Maybe it makes you happy to read that I´ve shot 2 more SG sets yesterday, means I have 5 sets you´ll see sooner or later. At least I wasn´t lazy, right ;-) I swallowed my anger, disappointment and sadness and kept on moving. I won´t stop modelling for nothing. I am sure it´s not easy for a guy to date a (mainly nude) model, but hey, that´s me! Take me as I am or leave...what else should I say?!

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drwhosit:
I'll never understand why people can do stuff like that to someone they loved before. Actually, I hope I will never understand... Love the picture, btw. :)
Jul 15, 2014
cyanide:
@drwhosit, I´ll never be able to do something like that to another human being, too. You can´t fix yourself by breaking someone else. 
Jul 15, 2014

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