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Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more, I'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way!
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who they want
and what they like, it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!
4th of july was nice. i went to my friend's boyfriend's house to light fireworks. it was short but satisfying. then i hung out on his couch and watched Lil' Bush for a while.
my head hurts really bad 
i felt kind of lonely tonight. not the lonely where you have no one to hang out with. but the lonely where you're single and you want lovin'. my friend was sitting at the end of the couch and her boyfriend was laying on it with his head in her lap sorta...and she would sort of play with his hair and stuff. it was sweet and i want to do that. it doesn't matter when, i can wait, but i want to know that i'll have that.
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i feel like there are way too many skanks in this world. way too many cheating whores that ruin it for the good girls. the girls who WANT to be dedicated, who WANT loyalty. and then what happens is, the whores cheat on the good guys who also want loyalty but then when they're cheated on, they become LESS trusting and less comfortable. SO THEN, when the good girl, the right girl, comes along, he can't trust her that easily. and sometimes, he can't at all. and what kills me, is that the good girl pays for it. when she says something with honesty, he says "that's what [insert cheating whore's name here] said.".....
and i'm not angry. i just think it's unfair. it makes me sad that love has to be so fucking hard. sometimes i honestly feel like giving up. like i just don't care. i don't want anyone because i'll either get cheated on, or what he and i build together will just fall apart. i've never had a relationship, but i'm already tired of them.
but i want someone. i want him.
i stretched my right ear.
so now my left and right ears are both at a 0g.
i feel somewhat accomplished. 
"i'm so sick of this terrible instinct...
it's so hard now just to find you."
And I aggree with you about the whole cheating whore thing. One chk fucks him up and then the rest of us never get a chance. and it sucks.