cyanea

a boy snuck into my room saturday night. and we did a couple somethings. and those somethings were rudely interupted. but still, i loved it. and i like him. but it's complicated. and i'm afraid that i'm expecting something that will never happen. actually, i know that i am. he doesn't want a relationship and i knew that before anything even happened. but he's so nice and i trust him and he talks to me differently....he makes my heart hurt in a good way. i'm not in love....and he's afraid that i'm attatched, i don't think i am? i don't want to be. god. i don't know. i want to talk to him. but he moved to north seattle and that's kinda far from where i live. so i'm not sure if he'll ever come back to me. i'm so confused and frustrated. he hasn't gotten online in 3 days. he's been really busy with school. i worry too much. i need to quit that.

grrrrr

i feel lame right now.

anyways, nothing else has really happened. i got my hair dyed again. pink and blonde. i hated my faded ugly. so i'm happy that it's pretty again.

i went to the most wonderful place with savannah (my best friend).....
a sandbar that had warm water and was completely cut off from people in the main beach area. i loved it. and it was shallow really far out....it was so great. i can't wait to go back.

i'm done. hope i wasn't too annoying. lol, toodles!