@chef I try so hard not to compare myself or be envious but if I'm feeling down it just happens. When I see such a beautiful woman with a great, positive outlook and amazing taste in everything I can't help but wish I were her. 

Truth is, there's always and ever only one YOU. Comparisons are of no value. You can strive for whatever you want to be or improve, FOR YOU, and you alone. Not for anyone else. You are a unique and precious creation and that alone makes you a valuable being. Your real worth and value comes most from inside  -- who and what you are, how you treat others, and the difference (betterment) you make possible because of your existence along your path.  Ok...sermon over,  lol.