cutthekidinhalf

i hate math i hate math i hate math..I am soo mad that my marketing class has so much math shit.. i fucking hate it.. i hate math i hate math...

I was thinking going to Stereolab show.but i guess not..i mean they are great band but i dun think they can't be too interesting live anyhow.. also i can use 15 dollars on something else such as new cd or new eyeliner...

I made this indian dish..it was yummy.. i am just soo impressed that my little cat was wating the leftover.. she probably will have a farting session pretty soon..

Pretending that i pay close attention to presentations in business classes is so hard for me now.. what makes great presenter anyhow? good looks? a charisma? confidence? prepareness? good eye contacts? boo.. lots of stuff are soo boring.. tv has ruined everyone's attention span that nothing excites audience except T & A... or some violence... I am thinking.. how much readings i would be doing if there was no tv..

we did this little in class exercise thinggy today .. it was to find out causes and results when a mom goes to work.. hmm.. lotta ppl had negative shit on results part.. such as abandoned children, divorce,,...etc... wtf.. i mean why even girls are soo negative about working moms? fuck this is 2004.. anyhow.. the question itself was fucking sexist anyhow.. moms AND dads can be caregivers to children.. it is soo ridiculous to c how tradiotanlly sexist people are in this world.. still.. *sigh*....fuck my mom worked while and after she had me.. she hired a nanny, and housekeeper... I think i grew up pretty all right.. I am not an alcoholic, i am not a drug addict.. i go to college.and i am sane.. having a mom that is a ceo is awesome and i am proud of her.. at least i am not a pathetic girl that has cinderella complex...

i found out that i have soo much gray hair... back of my head.. this is so weird... but oh well.

I dunno if i should sleep now or study now.. i LOVE to proscnate..........there are soo many fucking shows this week & end.. all out war, the rapture, fantomas/melt banana, stereolab, ....kraziness..

hmm i am debating which one is worth of spending 15 bux.. a cd? or a concert...

i 've been a big show whore.. i think it is kinda getting old.. but i really do wanna c Mike Patton..

I wanna go see Henry Rollins again.. but it is in Grand Rapid.. *sigh*

I wish i was not too lazy so i could read more, i wish i was not too lazy so i could run 4-7 miles a day like old days.. I wish i never drank in my life.. so i didn't have to waste my time and money on booze, I wish i never watched tv.. so i could be so much smarter. I wish i never put make up on my face, so i could feel so much prettier, I wish i never went to a mall.. so i could have more money to spend on something valuable, I wish i never met you, so i didn't have to taste the pain endlessly...i wish you didn't lie to me, so i could feel alive.....