In the words of MY Chemical Rommance"I'm not okay!....I'm not O-FUCKING-Kay"...I thought iwas over this I am not...Why do i think everything you ever said to me was lie...You lied abouttelling jen...you lied about so much...i never loved anyone quite as much as you..and you are killing me...Its not like I ever asked a lot from...You just leave..no regard for me...You dont even cancel your SG account like I asked.....I miss you....I believe you just waited for something better to come along.....I dont believe you that you are not getting into another rleationship...You enjoying the show!.....Everyone thinks I am ok i should get an oscar for this fucking acting job....No one really knows what is making me better...It hurts for a while...but it gives me something to focus on...And I am taking iron pills so I dont bleed much......Do you even think of me....i think of you all the time...but the pain and blood takes you off my mind! 
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
Fake friends dont give a fuck.FUCK YOU WATCH ME DIE!
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
Fake friends dont give a fuck.FUCK YOU WATCH ME DIE!
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What did I lie to you about? About telling Jenn, I never did. I never told my parents either. Do you think I wanted to listen to the "I told you so?" Not at all. JV, I don't know what else you want me to say.
There is no reason to cut yourself.