cutnhalf

i am sorry...If I am making you sad....I dont know what to say anymore....Since you left I feel like part of me is gone..i really hate it but its the truth...Everything i think has to do with you...maybe I was hoping that would stop...But I have been doing it for so long and probabbly do it for the rest of my life...i am not the samee anymore....i really dont know how to get better....All I know is that I have loved you more than I have ever loved anything in my life...You truly made me happy....You can tell me its cause I dont like change or whatever.....But I know whats in my heart....And I have never felt so completely lost in my entire life...I never caared what happened in my life cause you were always there...And now thaat you are gone I dont care what happens in my life cause you are not here to share it.....Go off be happy...But dont ask me not to feel this way....Dont ask me to live my life...Cause i know one thing for cetain now...i dont want to live my life with anyone but you...i am sorry if you tthink I am selfish.....Its just what i know in my heart...and no matter what ANTONE says I am not guilty of anything but falling in love with the person that makes me smile....SO much that now I dont I feel anything but pain.
Its 9 24 am...Woke up worse than ever...Dreamt about you all night...another shitty day to look forward to!