I tried something new this year -- I let a girl introduced me to her folks on christmas.

Long story short, I really don't like christmas parties all that much. We had family issues when I was young and gift giving was never really in the picture, so, basically, ever since I live on my own in Montreal, I've been spending Christmas on my own or with friends ... or at a lousy bar somewhere.

But not this year ... and it didn't go all too well.

The family thing was alright. Food was good, people were really inviting and all in all, it was a success.

But I never learned how to react to a gift I,m given, and boy, it can creates a huge misunderstanding.

The girl I,m with now gave me a huge gift, moneywise. I was not at all expecting that and when she revealed it to me, I was a rock. I mean, barely no reaction at all. Mixed feelings with a stone face.

And evantually, she cried. And I felt guilty. I still do.

My lonely ways are always catching up to me, even when I try something new.

Not alone for once.

Maybe I should stay on my own. Nobody gets disapointed when I turn off the lights home at night.

Bleh!