curss

Hey babes, I am going to be doing some chores n'stuff on my days off, so i'm sorry i dont think im going DT anymore, but i'll tty soon and we'll arrange something again at some point. I hope things are ok? haven't heard from you for a bit

likin the new profile pics

oooo sexified kitchen!!!

and yes it takes more work to stay upset than happy

and more muscles to frown than smile

and all that corny stuff...

you should.

ummm curses i miss you

please come back please.

you can be online still!!!

i need you to talk with me and keep up with my postings or you won't know whats going on and you can't yell at the boys who are bothering me ... what am i to do?

always so full of questions these days...i wouldn't sweat VDay. many more friends coming out of the woodwork now, and he'll learn (is learning) to be less mouthy. he does good stuff too, but really who is going to bitch about the good stuff hahaha. he wants to build me a greenhouse and put my butterflies and fireflies in it. he actually has the greenhouse diassembled. we aren't quite sure of the dimensions yet but we're exploring the possiblity that nihly might have her own lil' space in the backyard for reading in the winter when she's blue from S.A.D. I believe he'll even catch each firefly himself. if he actually paid attention to my writings then he'd realize this is a pretty outlandish idea. but he is tryin to be sweet. always trying. nite hun.

stop stressing, we would all slam our bodies together in hopes our souls would collide if we thought we could be less lonely, because no one in the world wishes to be totally alone. but since that's not how it's done, the stabs in the dark with words are all we have. and sometimes we miss. it hurts to throw yourself out there and not be recieved. but just keep on being you and eventually someone will catch you and perhaps you'll have that soul collision we're all hoping for. there. now bind that up in your nihl's novels collection for this evening. and mark it down in the "hope" chapter. it's a good thing to have with you always.

ps: someone unfamiliar to me has beat me at posting damn!

don't be a stranger for too too long please. like you would leave kissy faces haha

Is Curss the other lady? I hope so!
You are amazing in so many ways mister sir.
I am going to bed, sorry I was not able to be on MSN tonight =(
You should call me some time though.
oxox

There...those are both pretty ladies accounted for...with me sandwiched in the middle...saucy...I'll bet most the guys on here would kill to trade palces with me right now hahahahahah...talk to ya soon dolls...xoxo

where are you?!

did you REALLY come out to my park?! I don't believe you!!! if you did you should have come and said hi. That would have been an awesome surpise...

I know I just have to suck it up, i'm trying. it's ok. just bummed a bit right now but you know, looks like we're in the same boat.

crush came over tonite. he said he would for like an hour but he was too tired and stayed maybe 15 mins. that so did not help. espcially when he was like, "ya i'm leaving for BC tuesday." um I didn't know it was going to be so soon. that did not imropve my mood at all at all. so whatever, i knew it was going to happen, just not so soon.

my best friend comes home tomorrow and he said he's going to be around me so much i'll get sick of him. i hope so i fucking miss him so bad. I don't want to turn to crush for support at this time so i'm happy that the most understanding person who knows how to respond to my shit, my rock, is coming back. we'll do lots of shit together, i hope. or just chill and nothing at all. i don't care. ive seen him maybe three times this year, horrible. gotta make up for lots time.

try not to wonder what this girl is thinking anymore. it doesn't matter. she's not around and you can't be inside her head. i'm sure you affected her life in some way and provided good memories. you are a great person to know. i want to come visit again soon, when possible. i shall give you a call ok? when my freakin phone starts working properly again!!! its not connecting even with sull satellite power. i am so grrr man.

so either maybs expect a call to rant or a call to get some sort of visiting arrangements in place. i don't know exactly whats going on this weekend so i don't know if i could make it out, and i don't get another weekend off for awhile...i have days off during the week but you work so we'll see. it might just have to be like chill for an evening, cuz i know you have work during the week.

anyways, good luck hunnie. and, this prolly shouldnt come from me, but please cheer up. lots of ppl value you who are still around.

nite nite

i have been better to be honest..

ill be around in an hour? wait for me?

it ok and it's not MY poem, just song lyrics. don't be too hard on yourself. i'll come down when i know my shifts and we'll play pool and have SOME drinks at the pub. and have fun with friends being single lol. crushes aren't supposed to get you down this bad. they are supposed to be easy to get over.

I am being so good, you would be proud! I need to come out soon so we can pub it up and play some pool... You can coach me through it! Man. I'm repetitive!