So I was asked to be in a HEDLEY video today...who the hell is HEDLEY?...I know they're canadian...and some friends laughed when I told them about this...so I'm thinkin they're no good...I woulda played the guy who steals the girlfriend away...from the whole band?...who knows...anyways I couldn't go cuz of stupid regular work...woulda been easy money...easy HEDLEY money!!!...that's worth more with the exchange I think...they...
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Well apparently I lost a friend on this site today...or last nite...not sure which...and the best part is I don't even know why...I tried really hard to be a good friend to her...but she made it very difficult for me to get close to her...so I guess she didn't want to know me...so no explanations...no good-byes...just one less person on my friends list... ... ......
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So here's what i'm thinkin...about relationships...and dating...and fucking...
Relationships: I've come to the sad realization that I'm not very good at them...I haven't figured out why yet...well maybe I have some theories-I just don't wanna get into it tonite...but yeah, I'm not good at them...
Dating: I don't really see the point in it anymore...it's alot of work and if I can't do the relationship...
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Relationships: I've come to the sad realization that I'm not very good at them...I haven't figured out why yet...well maybe I have some theories-I just don't wanna get into it tonite...but yeah, I'm not good at them...
Dating: I don't really see the point in it anymore...it's alot of work and if I can't do the relationship...
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I can feel a major journal entry brewing...don't know yet if it's good or bad...time will tell.
oh yeah and I saw my x-mas ex today...the one i call crazy-face...it's weird...but for the life of me...i can't recall why i dated her...there was absolutely nothing there...in fact i kinda wished i was somewhere else...i've never been so happy to see my streetcar arrive...usually i can...
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oh yeah and I saw my x-mas ex today...the one i call crazy-face...it's weird...but for the life of me...i can't recall why i dated her...there was absolutely nothing there...in fact i kinda wished i was somewhere else...i've never been so happy to see my streetcar arrive...usually i can...
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so i find if i keep busy enough...i don't focus on the miserable stuff floating around in my head...which is good...but i'm getting really tired from running around doing all kinds of shit to keep busy...i just wanna flake out and watch crappy movies...but then i start thinking about things i don't want to...so i'm gonna try to focus on starting a side business...i have...
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nihly:
oooo yay pojects! that's EXACTLY what you need to do, summer projects!!! let me know what you're thinking. you are so full of untapped potential, i can't wait to see what you come up with. you have such interesting stuff around you apartment and i haven't even seen it fully unpacked yet! PS: i've been somewhat inactive with the internet and SG as of late, but i miss and am thinkin of ya. i reeeealllly want to get out to TO before summer's damn end. But flaking out once in a while is warranted hun, and you can't out run yourself/thoughts so just let them bug ya every now and then and let them be there. they are just feelings. you'll live. 
You took all of my love when you left...can I keep my dignity?
-CURSS-
"Never again, no, will I give up my heart
To gamble with fate is my crime
Nevertheless love, it's all here in my book
I'd write it but don't have much time
You see, I know it sounds crazy
But what can I do
I've fallen head over heels, over you"...
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-CURSS-
"Never again, no, will I give up my heart
To gamble with fate is my crime
Nevertheless love, it's all here in my book
I'd write it but don't have much time
You see, I know it sounds crazy
But what can I do
I've fallen head over heels, over you"...
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nihly:
hahaha man this guy is just too easy to impress tho...it makes me want to date girls
nihly:
*shrugs* it's bait but there's only so much room and time for ppl in ur life, she's full to the brim, its just shitty deals, i dont keep up as well in the summer but i still checked it out and would catch up and msg, so whatevs. its the internet lol it doesnt have to be taken too seriously
Everything's fine...
after_monday:
great! 
nihly:
GOOD!
hahaha i was up late because i was seeing my BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND
hahaha i was up late because i was seeing my BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND
Watching the day turn black
the fireflys glow slowly fades out
People break their backs chasing things that aren't important
-money
-power
-fame
break their backs
break their necks
break their balls
break their hearts
"What do you chase?"
-I chase dreams...and memories chase me
Never fully recovered
-deadman walkin
I spend my days just shakin my head at the world
-and my nites just...
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the fireflys glow slowly fades out
People break their backs chasing things that aren't important
-money
-power
-fame
break their backs
break their necks
break their balls
break their hearts
"What do you chase?"
-I chase dreams...and memories chase me
Never fully recovered
-deadman walkin
I spend my days just shakin my head at the world
-and my nites just...
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nihly:
i knew it was good for you, i'm glad my guts are missable hehehe. it's ok i just hope you aren't doing what you shouldn't be doing...i hope...
and we share our problems, we don't burden each other. going at things alone, it's what got me so messed up in the first place. a metaphor for you, given to me to help me understand how necessary it is, however hard, to share our "burdens" with one another:
you push at a boulder, trying to get it up a hill to the top. you struggle and pant, your back hurts and basically you're getting nowhere, just gouging out ruts in the dirt with you feet. someone else helps you push the boulder, and it moves a little more easily, spreading the weight of it between you both. and then someone else, and then someone else. and there's less struggle on you, since it's spread between the group. eventually the boulder gets to the top of that damn hill. and just think, had you done it alone, you'd still be at the bottom panting and hurting and feeling like shit. getting nowhere.
remember that! then don't feel bad anymore about talkin to me. i have a phone too.
and we share our problems, we don't burden each other. going at things alone, it's what got me so messed up in the first place. a metaphor for you, given to me to help me understand how necessary it is, however hard, to share our "burdens" with one another:
you push at a boulder, trying to get it up a hill to the top. you struggle and pant, your back hurts and basically you're getting nowhere, just gouging out ruts in the dirt with you feet. someone else helps you push the boulder, and it moves a little more easily, spreading the weight of it between you both. and then someone else, and then someone else. and there's less struggle on you, since it's spread between the group. eventually the boulder gets to the top of that damn hill. and just think, had you done it alone, you'd still be at the bottom panting and hurting and feeling like shit. getting nowhere.
remember that! then don't feel bad anymore about talkin to me. i have a phone too.
nihly:
you already know i would suck at it soooo... hahaha nice im glad im gonna come all the way out there for a royal ass kicking
nite hun
nite hun
The bodies thrash about on the dance floor
-the lights are a little too low
-the music is a little too loud
...and the people dance...
They dance until they sweat
-until they stink
-until they forget
I get looked at
-stared at
-checked out
-perused
-once overed
-assessed
-judged
but never approached
...but the drinks are cold
I take my time...what's the rush?
Hours...
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-the lights are a little too low
-the music is a little too loud
...and the people dance...
They dance until they sweat
-until they stink
-until they forget
I get looked at
-stared at
-checked out
-perused
-once overed
-assessed
-judged
but never approached
...but the drinks are cold
I take my time...what's the rush?
Hours...
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So I had another productive day offline...got alot of shit done around the flat...and just took it easy...which I do alot of hahahah...things are better than they have been...but not as good as they could be...I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing getting so used to being alone all the time...I'm starting to not care anymore...
nihly:
it's good if you are feeling better. and you aren't alone really. maybe physically sometimes...but you aren't alone babes