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i knew it was good for you, i'm glad my guts are missable hehehe. it's ok i just hope you aren't doing what you shouldn't be doing...i hope...

and we share our problems, we don't burden each other. going at things alone, it's what got me so messed up in the first place. a metaphor for you, given to me to help me understand how necessary it is, however hard, to share our "burdens" with one another:

you push at a boulder, trying to get it up a hill to the top. you struggle and pant, your back hurts and basically you're getting nowhere, just gouging out ruts in the dirt with you feet. someone else helps you push the boulder, and it moves a little more easily, spreading the weight of it between you both. and then someone else, and then someone else. and there's less struggle on you, since it's spread between the group. eventually the boulder gets to the top of that damn hill. and just think, had you done it alone, you'd still be at the bottom panting and hurting and feeling like shit. getting nowhere.

remember that! then don't feel bad anymore about talkin to me. i have a phone too.

you already know i would suck at it soooo... hahaha nice im glad im gonna come all the way out there for a royal ass kicking

nite hun