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I'm still waiting to hear news about my friend...but now my line of communication seems to have been cut-off on this site due to some motherfuckers doubting the seriousness and truth behind these events...I've emailed her friend directly...but haven't received a reply...I'm hoping he's just overwhelmed with all her friends messages and will get back to me as soon as he can catch up...I hate this feeling of inactivity...this just waiting to see what someone else is gonna do...and I hate not knowing how she's doing....I wanna call her and hear her voice...telling me she's feeling better...I wanna see he drive her RV up my street...and know we get to meet...and hangout for awhile...doing nothing together...or doing everything...site seeing in my own home town with her...taking her to my favorite haunts and telling her all the fuckin ridiculous stories I have about them...I wanna know that she's gonna be alright for a long time...that we'll have tons of time to be in each others lives...then this bad time wouldn't feel so shitty...when I'm 85 and she's 67...I wanna ride around town with her on the foot-pegs of my Rascal and we can laugh about how "spooky" it was that she flat-lined on Friday the 13th...but she has to get better first...so, right now all my thoughts are with her...any extra strength I have is going to her...Why get so attached to someone you only met a short time ago?...cuz that's how I am...I can know somebody for years and never feel close to them because I don't ever feel that they're worth the time or effort...other people I meet I know almost instantly that they're supposed to be in my life...that there's a reason...somewhere...for us meeting at all...Tuesday is one of those people...and if you can't understand thatthen fuck offI've probably been livin longer than youso you don't get to judge my ways of doin thingsnow I'm getting angry cuz my little friend is very sick and I can't do a fuckin thing for herand right now I don't even know how she's doinso I'll just keep thinking the best things I can for herand about heruntil I hear from her

I miss you...
xoxoxo