Well...let's see whats been goin on...hmmm...hmmmmmm...not too much...got my stomach tattooed on Tuesday...haha...nevermind...2 Day of the Dead skulls...which will look awesome when they're finished...went back to work...DULLLLLLL...and I got to help a sweet friend out when she needed helping...my good deed for this month...other than that it's been pretty low-key this week I guess...almost the weekend...OH YEAH- I think I'm going to see NEKROMANTIX on...
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You don't even miss me do you?
- summer's here and the nights are warm
- and the drinks flow
I'll bet you take long walks with him
- and impress all his friends with how pretty you are
Do you ever think about me at all?
- do you care?
Or have i become this embarassing joke?
-" Ewwwww, you fucked an old guy"...
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- summer's here and the nights are warm
- and the drinks flow
I'll bet you take long walks with him
- and impress all his friends with how pretty you are
Do you ever think about me at all?
- do you care?
Or have i become this embarassing joke?
-" Ewwwww, you fucked an old guy"...
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after_monday:
where are you?!
nihly:
did you REALLY come out to my park?! I don't believe you!!! if you did you should have come and said hi. That would have been an awesome surpise...
I know I just have to suck it up, i'm trying. it's ok. just bummed a bit right now but you know, looks like we're in the same boat.
crush came over tonite. he said he would for like an hour but he was too tired and stayed maybe 15 mins. that so did not help. espcially when he was like, "ya i'm leaving for BC tuesday." um I didn't know it was going to be so soon. that did not imropve my mood at all at all. so whatever, i knew it was going to happen, just not so soon.
my best friend comes home tomorrow and he said he's going to be around me so much i'll get sick of him. i hope so i fucking miss him so bad. I don't want to turn to crush for support at this time so i'm happy that the most understanding person who knows how to respond to my shit, my rock, is coming back. we'll do lots of shit together, i hope. or just chill and nothing at all. i don't care. ive seen him maybe three times this year, horrible. gotta make up for lots time.
try not to wonder what this girl is thinking anymore. it doesn't matter. she's not around and you can't be inside her head. i'm sure you affected her life in some way and provided good memories. you are a great person to know. i want to come visit again soon, when possible. i shall give you a call ok? when my freakin phone starts working properly again!!! its not connecting even with sull satellite power. i am so grrr man.
so either maybs expect a call to rant or a call to get some sort of visiting arrangements in place. i don't know exactly whats going on this weekend so i don't know if i could make it out, and i don't get another weekend off for awhile...i have days off during the week but you work so we'll see. it might just have to be like chill for an evening, cuz i know you have work during the week.
anyways, good luck hunnie. and, this prolly shouldnt come from me, but please cheer up. lots of ppl value you who are still around.
nite nite
I know I just have to suck it up, i'm trying. it's ok. just bummed a bit right now but you know, looks like we're in the same boat.
crush came over tonite. he said he would for like an hour but he was too tired and stayed maybe 15 mins. that so did not help. espcially when he was like, "ya i'm leaving for BC tuesday." um I didn't know it was going to be so soon. that did not imropve my mood at all at all. so whatever, i knew it was going to happen, just not so soon.
my best friend comes home tomorrow and he said he's going to be around me so much i'll get sick of him. i hope so i fucking miss him so bad. I don't want to turn to crush for support at this time so i'm happy that the most understanding person who knows how to respond to my shit, my rock, is coming back. we'll do lots of shit together, i hope. or just chill and nothing at all. i don't care. ive seen him maybe three times this year, horrible. gotta make up for lots time.
try not to wonder what this girl is thinking anymore. it doesn't matter. she's not around and you can't be inside her head. i'm sure you affected her life in some way and provided good memories. you are a great person to know. i want to come visit again soon, when possible. i shall give you a call ok? when my freakin phone starts working properly again!!! its not connecting even with sull satellite power. i am so grrr man.
so either maybs expect a call to rant or a call to get some sort of visiting arrangements in place. i don't know exactly whats going on this weekend so i don't know if i could make it out, and i don't get another weekend off for awhile...i have days off during the week but you work so we'll see. it might just have to be like chill for an evening, cuz i know you have work during the week.
anyways, good luck hunnie. and, this prolly shouldnt come from me, but please cheer up. lots of ppl value you who are still around.
nite nite
So I worked the Clothing Show on Saturday...8 hours of boring HELL...I think the store I work for lost money doing it...but that's their problem...I still get paid hahaha...bumped into a VERY old friend of mine that I let fade out of my life...sadly...and it was really cool seeing her agian...and then I met a very new friend of mine at the show...which was also...
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after_monday:
i have been better to be honest..
after_monday:
ill be around in an hour? wait for me?
I look around me...to my real life friends...to my online friends...to people I interact with daily...and I see everyone in a state of panic...over what?...being alone...nobody I know seems to be cool with just being alone...not having a boyfriend/girlfriend and being happy by themselves...and sadly I have to put myself on this list right now...I used to be the King of spending my time alone...
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nihly:
it ok and it's not MY poem, just song lyrics. don't be too hard on yourself. i'll come down when i know my shifts and we'll play pool and have SOME drinks at the pub. and have fun with friends being single lol. crushes aren't supposed to get you down this bad. they are supposed to be easy to get over.
nihly:
I am being so good, you would be proud! I need to come out soon so we can pub it up and play some pool... You can coach me through it! Man. I'm repetitive!
Man. I'm repetitive!So I drank way too much Thursday nite with some co-workers and skipped work on Friday...now they're gonna assume that it was simply because I was hung-over and I just didn't feel like going in...which is fine because I'd rather they think that then know the real reasons why I played hooky...but it sucks because I go so long these days behaving myself around booze...and...
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So I spent Saturday cleaning up my "new" yard...went and boguht a rake and cleaned up all the sticks...soooo many sticks...and now the front and back look tons better...and the front porch is almost completely clear of garbage bags from the old tenants...so soon it won't look like I live in the garbage house any longer...replaced all the lite-bulbs that seemed to burn out all...
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nihly:
i have new photos, i posted my photography...some you might even recognize
nihly:
dont know who that is...?
Sad day...worse evening...thought I left all my ghosts behind at the old flat...apparently not...they're all over this fuckin city...and they follow me everywhere...
nihly:
Ahem. No being sad allowed! Pretty please with sugar and cherries on top!
Yeah...ya see...I never learn...I say I've learned...I think I've learned...but I haven't...or maybe I've learned and just don't care...or maybe I think I've learned but am really to stupid to know that I haven't learned anything from my mistakes...I just keep making the same dumb moves over and over...they always feel new...and I'm always sure I'm right this time...but then-later on-I realize that it's the...
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nihly:
That's not fair at all, all that rant and no spill. I want to know the secret jerkstore!
Clearly the paint fumes have gotten to your haed. Oh well, guess who never learns too?
*ahem*
Clearly the paint fumes have gotten to your haed. Oh well, guess who never learns too?
*ahem*
emylou:
Thank you, you're awesome! 
And so a new week begins...what a crazy fucked up week the last one was...anyways...I'm hoping things are gonna start gettin better from this point on...I'll write more tonite I guess...I have a house-painter in my place...and it's creepin me out...he keeps walkin back and forth...makin me nervous hahahaha...have a great day ladies...
nihly:
I shall try. Hoping tomorrow goes great, more importantly! I'm trying not to be a downer, I checked myself and I know why I'm bummed so I guess in facing it I can get over it and cheer up...um this maybe should be a PM but I really don't care haha. Gotta take 'er ezay tonight I think is the key. So no late night internet for me 
the apartment will look so good, i'll have to visit again. Tell me when your shelves are up and whatnot. OH! and the art show looks amazing!!! Very very professional (the one at the school with my program) I am blown away. So excited. But I might not be able to go to the opening tomorrow when all the awards are presented....le grrrrr....blah blah blah ok I'm done now 
the apartment will look so good, i'll have to visit again. Tell me when your shelves are up and whatnot. OH! and the art show looks amazing!!! Very very professional (the one at the school with my program) I am blown away. So excited. But I might not be able to go to the opening tomorrow when all the awards are presented....le grrrrr....blah blah blah ok I'm done now Good news has put me in better spirits today...my friend Tuesday seems to be doing better...I can't wait for her to get past this...I really wanna talk to her...be strong sweetie...
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nihly:
I better be a good friend too! 
Or I won't let you teach me pool!!!
HOORAY!!! so happy. now you can be happy too...or relieved, rather.
Or I won't let you teach me pool!!!
HOORAY!!! so happy. now you can be happy too...or relieved, rather.
nihly:
hahaha I checked out your "day in the life", no pics of you in there eh? I have a sneaky feeling that that cig tray was cleaned out a bit before you shot it, cuz i have photo proof of much much worse. And the secret to bland water? crystal light...my friends are positively addicted to it. Sucky you don't get paid lunches...I promise I shall wear shorts, just no ugly ones. Curses approved only. Stop laughing at my list now
I'm still waiting to hear news about my friend...but now my line of communication seems to have been cut-off on this site due to some motherfuckers doubting the seriousness and truth behind these events...I've emailed her friend directly...but haven't received a reply...I'm hoping he's just overwhelmed with all her friends messages and will get back to me as soon as he can catch up...I hate...
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I'm waiting to hear about my friend...... ......... .........that's all...
You are amazing in so many ways mister sir.
I am going to bed, sorry I was not able to be on MSN tonight =(
You should call me some time though.
oxox