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oooo yay pojects! that's EXACTLY what you need to do, summer projects!!! let me know what you're thinking. you are so full of untapped potential, i can't wait to see what you come up with. you have such interesting stuff around you apartment and i haven't even seen it fully unpacked yet! PS: i've been somewhat inactive with the internet and SG as of late, but i miss and am thinkin of ya. i reeeealllly want to get out to TO before summer's damn end. But flaking out once in a while is warranted hun, and you can't out run yourself/thoughts so just let them bug ya every now and then and let them be there. they are just feelings. you'll live.

hahaha man this guy is just too easy to impress tho...it makes me want to date girls

*shrugs* it's bait but there's only so much room and time for ppl in ur life, she's full to the brim, its just shitty deals, i dont keep up as well in the summer but i still checked it out and would catch up and msg, so whatevs. its the internet lol it doesnt have to be taken too seriously

great!

GOOD!

hahaha i was up late because i was seeing my BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND

i knew it was good for you, i'm glad my guts are missable hehehe. it's ok i just hope you aren't doing what you shouldn't be doing...i hope...

and we share our problems, we don't burden each other. going at things alone, it's what got me so messed up in the first place. a metaphor for you, given to me to help me understand how necessary it is, however hard, to share our "burdens" with one another:

you push at a boulder, trying to get it up a hill to the top. you struggle and pant, your back hurts and basically you're getting nowhere, just gouging out ruts in the dirt with you feet. someone else helps you push the boulder, and it moves a little more easily, spreading the weight of it between you both. and then someone else, and then someone else. and there's less struggle on you, since it's spread between the group. eventually the boulder gets to the top of that damn hill. and just think, had you done it alone, you'd still be at the bottom panting and hurting and feeling like shit. getting nowhere.

remember that! then don't feel bad anymore about talkin to me. i have a phone too.

you already know i would suck at it soooo... hahaha nice im glad im gonna come all the way out there for a royal ass kicking

nite hun

it's good if you are feeling better. and you aren't alone really. maybe physically sometimes...but you aren't alone babes

Hey babes, I am going to be doing some chores n'stuff on my days off, so i'm sorry i dont think im going DT anymore, but i'll tty soon and we'll arrange something again at some point. I hope things are ok? haven't heard from you for a bit

likin the new profile pics

oooo sexified kitchen!!!

and yes it takes more work to stay upset than happy

and more muscles to frown than smile

and all that corny stuff...

you should.

ummm curses i miss you

please come back please.

you can be online still!!!

i need you to talk with me and keep up with my postings or you won't know whats going on and you can't yell at the boys who are bothering me ... what am i to do?

always so full of questions these days...i wouldn't sweat VDay. many more friends coming out of the woodwork now, and he'll learn (is learning) to be less mouthy. he does good stuff too, but really who is going to bitch about the good stuff hahaha. he wants to build me a greenhouse and put my butterflies and fireflies in it. he actually has the greenhouse diassembled. we aren't quite sure of the dimensions yet but we're exploring the possiblity that nihly might have her own lil' space in the backyard for reading in the winter when she's blue from S.A.D. I believe he'll even catch each firefly himself. if he actually paid attention to my writings then he'd realize this is a pretty outlandish idea. but he is tryin to be sweet. always trying. nite hun.

stop stressing, we would all slam our bodies together in hopes our souls would collide if we thought we could be less lonely, because no one in the world wishes to be totally alone. but since that's not how it's done, the stabs in the dark with words are all we have. and sometimes we miss. it hurts to throw yourself out there and not be recieved. but just keep on being you and eventually someone will catch you and perhaps you'll have that soul collision we're all hoping for. there. now bind that up in your nihl's novels collection for this evening. and mark it down in the "hope" chapter. it's a good thing to have with you always.

ps: someone unfamiliar to me has beat me at posting damn!

don't be a stranger for too too long please. like you would leave kissy faces haha