cureelise

thanks for all the get wells. I'm feeling very loved. my cold is almost got . just have a little cough now and then. it's not as bad as it was last week.
these next couple of weeks are going to be hard for me. it's my first valentines day w/o my grandmother. so i'm a little down . it's still hard to believe that she's been gone for almost a year. so that's one thing that's got be down , the other is me having the miscarriage on the same day as her funeral. i wasn't going to think about it , but it's been hard since i found out i was pregnant on feb 12th . it was one hell of a valentines day gift for the family . then it was taken away from us when we were already going through a sad time. I guess my strength was being tested . my friends have been calling and checking up on me to see how i'm doing and shit. I also have my online buddies that have been very supportive and loving. they know who they are and that I love them for it. so things are that bad.
these last 2 weeks have been really kick back for me. I've been taking some helpful herbs and we are going to be getting more today or tomorrow . so it's been really mellow yellow for me. I am a little upset at myself for not being able to help out someone that I really care about. I wanted to tell him something really deep since I thought it might help and I couldn't find the words to do it. it really bugs me when shit like that happens
me loves u TheL0usyH3ro now that is what i call HAWT