cuntcake

Im so sick of everything.
Im sick of being sick.
Im sick of being tired.
Im sick of worrying if Im saying the right things at the right times.
Im sick of just worrying in general.
Im sick of my stupid new hair cut.
Im sick of this stupid little town.
Im sick of friendships crumbleing.
Im sick of having to fix things.
Im sick of not knowing if my husband loves me or not.
Im sick of being in the dark.
Im sick of waiting around for him.
Im sick of my empty head.
Im sick of stupid fucking liars that tend to be "friends".
Im just sick of it all.

On monday I found out that in december I'll be moving again to Texas, not knowing if I'll be alone again in six months or not. Im glad I'll get out of here and see Darin.. and work things out.. but god damn it I am draging my mom with me so im not the only thats lost in life. and cause shes my best friend.

And, The lump in my tit has gotten insanely bigger.. It kind of scares me.. I just wish I wasnt too scared to go to the doctor.

Whatever.
On the up side, I realize how insanely cute my husband has gotten. Gah, I hate the army for sending him to korea.