Friday night I had a very lovely and drawn out three-hour (or so) conversation with Anna, where a few somewhat tender words were exchanged, the details of which will remain my providence (unless you really HAVE to know, then you could email me I guess).
I can't believe that I'm turning this journal into a "look at my romantic interactions" thing. I actually commented in the afformentioned conversation about how so many books, movies, and songs are focused on the topic of relationships, love, etc, so I guess that my journal is also victim to the natural tendency to focus on the romantic that we fleshy bodies have.
Anyway. It was beautiful and good, and I walked away with a slight glow across the surface of my soul (if I have such a thing).
But... do to repeatedly arising phone-related problems I haven't been in contact with her since, which is extremely sucky.
I'm trying to relax my internal mechanisms though. Not fall into any obsessive tendencies. Just let the space breathe for a little bit and then come back.
I suspect that I need to let the glow fade a little anyway. It's distorting. I wonder if maybe she isn't having some sort of internal thing too, where she likes me but she is like, "I'm not the kind of person who gets into this sort of thing."
And then there's her ex-fiancee, but that's an entirely different story.
I am probably going to go see her in... 10-14 days or so, assuming no further complication. I hope that reality will unfold a greater clarity on the whole situation.
I can't believe that I'm turning this journal into a "look at my romantic interactions" thing. I actually commented in the afformentioned conversation about how so many books, movies, and songs are focused on the topic of relationships, love, etc, so I guess that my journal is also victim to the natural tendency to focus on the romantic that we fleshy bodies have.
Anyway. It was beautiful and good, and I walked away with a slight glow across the surface of my soul (if I have such a thing).
But... do to repeatedly arising phone-related problems I haven't been in contact with her since, which is extremely sucky.
I'm trying to relax my internal mechanisms though. Not fall into any obsessive tendencies. Just let the space breathe for a little bit and then come back.
I suspect that I need to let the glow fade a little anyway. It's distorting. I wonder if maybe she isn't having some sort of internal thing too, where she likes me but she is like, "I'm not the kind of person who gets into this sort of thing."
And then there's her ex-fiancee, but that's an entirely different story.
I am probably going to go see her in... 10-14 days or so, assuming no further complication. I hope that reality will unfold a greater clarity on the whole situation.