cthylla

I am utterly terrible about keeping up with this site. For one thing, it takes a while to load for me, and I really don't like it. Sure, it looks cool.... but I have the attention span of a gnat.

Roller Derby is keeping me very busy... I've been going to the gym as much as possible to improve physically.... I REALLY want to play well during our game August 6.

I've also got some new friends that I've been spending a lot of time with.... it's so interesting showing up in a group of already established friends. Figuring out the dynamics of who likes who.... and who secretly hates who. Who persists in liking me even tho I've made it abundantly clear I have a bf and can't go much beyond some innocent flirting. And of course who gets mad at me for showing up and stealing all of the men.

How they relate, and how they fight... what's funny and what isn't. It would be much easier if they didn't expect me to participate.

I've never encountered secret hatreds within a group of close-knit friends before. It's truly bizarre. Of course, I really like the guy I'm supposed to hate along with everyone else. Apparently, he stole someone's gf in the past, yet they "made up" and still continue to hang out.

I think he's hilarious... and I have no bad history with him..... so why should I care? He makes me laugh to the point of tears... and that's the most impressive someone can be in my book. Yet, I continue to receive "veiled threats" from the other guys in the group about "falling prey" to his charms. I'm not trying to fuck the guy... I just enjoy his company.

I can't post this on myspace because they're all on there. I rather enjoy feeling like I'm in high school again.