csilla

so, i am still in buffalo. but things didnt go the way we planned. i dont really want to get into it right now, but lets just say vito wasnt well, and everything is so up in the air. i found an apartment near school, so atleast that, but he doesnt know if he is gonna stay with me or move back home for a while. things are so fucked up right now its not even funny. and i feel like ive had to grow up so much in these past two weeks. i feel like i had to fight against the world. and i dont even know if i have won yet.

so i saw vito today, and we just argued about money, so i feel like shit. hopefully i will see him tonight and go see lord of the rings or something. he might be too tired. then i am going home monday, and who knows what will happen from there.

i love him so much, i just want him and us to be ok.