I've been "working from home" all week, but just as I had anticipated, was far lazier than I should have been. I want my energy back, damnit! I did get some candles done, but not enough of the big ones... I still have a few days though, so there's still time.
I'm coming into a little money... just enough to pay off my debt, buy a car, and have a little to play with and invest. I thought it was going to take a lot longer to get it, but I was just informed yesterday that it may be as soon as next week. I'm kind of suprised that I have so much anxiety about it. I couldn't sleep at all last night... finally fell asleep around 4, which for me now is unheard of! It's the best gift in the world and I can't WAIT to be out from under the impending tragedy that is my debt... but I'm also very scared of money. I feel like people already expect me to fail with it by blowing it all - which the track record shows to be a possibility, but c'mon, I was 18! Get over it! Not only was I 18, I was 18 with zero parental guidance and zero real-life experience. I must say that I'm proud that I've been able to drag myself back up from the bottom over the last decade, and my lack of financial freedom has more to do with the fact that I just don't make what I'm worth rather than my management skills. Ok, I spoil myself a little. A LITTLE.
I think its a really good thing that I'm only getting half of what I thought I was getting, and I get the other half when I turn 35. That's a little extra insurace for me, just in case. It's going to make me take things slower, that's for sure. I was all prepared to quit my job, and go into full production on candles. I probably would have quit my job, made a few candles here and there, enjoyed my time off and spent it all with nothing to show for it.... realistically.
Ok... maybe a shower will wake me up... I'm well on my way to wasting another day!
I'm coming into a little money... just enough to pay off my debt, buy a car, and have a little to play with and invest. I thought it was going to take a lot longer to get it, but I was just informed yesterday that it may be as soon as next week. I'm kind of suprised that I have so much anxiety about it. I couldn't sleep at all last night... finally fell asleep around 4, which for me now is unheard of! It's the best gift in the world and I can't WAIT to be out from under the impending tragedy that is my debt... but I'm also very scared of money. I feel like people already expect me to fail with it by blowing it all - which the track record shows to be a possibility, but c'mon, I was 18! Get over it! Not only was I 18, I was 18 with zero parental guidance and zero real-life experience. I must say that I'm proud that I've been able to drag myself back up from the bottom over the last decade, and my lack of financial freedom has more to do with the fact that I just don't make what I'm worth rather than my management skills. Ok, I spoil myself a little. A LITTLE.
I think its a really good thing that I'm only getting half of what I thought I was getting, and I get the other half when I turn 35. That's a little extra insurace for me, just in case. It's going to make me take things slower, that's for sure. I was all prepared to quit my job, and go into full production on candles. I probably would have quit my job, made a few candles here and there, enjoyed my time off and spent it all with nothing to show for it.... realistically.
Ok... maybe a shower will wake me up... I'm well on my way to wasting another day!
Sometimes I wish world consisted on bardering system.