crystalblaze

Quick note. I hate hate Valentine's Day and Christmas cause I remember everybody and nobody remembers me. Just set out valentine's day cards in the male to friends and I know I will not receive a one. Tis how it always goes. Even when I had steady boyfriends, the only time I ever receive a gift was from my husband our first valentine's. The second one he took back the gift, which was going to be a paradise vacation, because he was divorcing me. I also remember the good old school days when people would walk around with flowers from their friends and I would not have a one. It was like a badge of popularity, how many a person got. One year I got so lonely I bought myself a carnation at school and then everyone wanted to know where the flower came from. I felt like such a loser saying it was from myself. I also hate the stupid jewlery comercials that come on. Save for my engangement ring, I always bought my own jewlery. Actually wait, the first Valentines from my husband was a smile diamond on a necklace. Flowers I have received from a dear friend of mine Enquire and once from my husband, crosage for prom since I was married while in high school but that's it. This valentines will be like next year and like last year, another reminder of how small I really am.