crystalblaze

My body is soooo old and I am suffering a midlife crisis like everyday. I have degenerative back disorder so I like to bend over and hold my back like an old fogie. I have a stomach disease and I don't feel like getting it fixed, I am tired of attending to it. My nervous system is shot. I have been off my depression medication for several months now and I am going to have a nervous break down. Every day I am closer. So my nerves are on flight or fight. My body even shakes sometimes uncontrollably. I get vision and balance problems. I can also faint easily when that happens. At other times I feel like my limbs are lead and my body keeps wanting to shut me down, put me to sleep where I can sleep my life away. And when I do sleep I can't get up, I try but I am like drugged. And than my mind is running a million miles a minute so I can't consentrate on anything and to make things worse, my mind is running blindly in the fog so I can't even see where I am going. I get sooo angry and fusterated that I have no control over my own body and mind...after all it is mine!! The most damage is what I do to others. I just started Prozac so lets see how much more messed I can get, yeah!