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crystalblaze

Manchester, NH

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Monday Mar 13, 2006

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I had a weird dream this morning. Well basiclly...it was about a man who is the leader and 3 other people who go place to place and make people beautiful for a fee. He wanted to do that to me...but I was weary of what the fee would be. He told me he can't tell until all his work is done. I asked if I could give him an amount I can afford and have him work until he reached that amount. He said he couldn't operate that way because his job is to create a great beauty and can't stop halfway their. So I agreed because I wanted the attention and I wanted to look pretty. So they started working on me and I was telling them what I thought my faults were and the leader was emailing his boss that he has somesome to work on 4-8....cause it was 4pm and I was thinking the entire time what it would cost to pay for 4 people and a lot of makeup for 4 hours...and I was dreading it too. I was thinking to myself how much of a sucker I am...and how I have a hard time saying no. Well, my mother comes home and finds out that I am having so many people working on me for an unset but pricy number and flips and she tells me that I have to move out. I was crying and stuff but the people still kept working on me. I thought that maybe the people would stop after that but they didn't and I did something to myself...I think I killed myself or hurt myself because I ended up naked and at the hospital lifeless. Afterwards, the people still wanted to come to the hospital and make me pretty for my couffin I think.
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tilpacer:
Wow, that is wierd. surreal

But luckily in realy life you are already really pretty. biggrin blush

Have a great day! biggrin
Mar 13, 2006
caffeinemonkey:
I think your dream is telling you that you are killing yourself when you look for others to make you feel beautiful. You need to realize that you are beautiful on your own. When you reach out for validation it often cost you. Your mother is crying because this symbolizes the mother in yourself that has has unconditional love for her child. And wants you to have the same love for yourself like you love your child.

Every guy on this site will validate your beauty but you have to believe it in yourself.
Mar 13, 2006

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