Okay, I am going to make a negative entry here. If this isn't negative I don't know what is....
So, reasons why I suck and hate myself:
1) I take the emotion out of life with my cold analytical observations
2) I take the rational out of my irrational emotion
3) I have nasty little habits that are harder than hell to break
4) I can suck the life out of anyone
5) I have impulse control issues
6) I hide what I shouldn't, say what I shouldn't, do what I shouldn't
7) I can't cook, hate cooking.
8) It is harder than hell to get me off.
9) I have obsessive compulsive tendencies
10) I like my habits
11) I am dislexic
12) I have brain damage
13) I have no visual memory and no short term memory
14) I have a stomach disease that eats my stomach, causing eating disorders
15) I have a degenerative back disorder, operation necissary in 10 years...crippled somewhat
16) I am a terrible driver
17) I am tone deaf, read lips a lot
18) Everyone I am with dumps my ass like a sack of potatoes
19) I suffer from depression and panic attacks
20) I have genital herpes which I must take valtrex every fucking day for the rest of my pitiful existence
21) I am treated as diseased because of my herpes, denied sex, look at differently
22) I am insecure, I am afraid, I am nervous because of my past
23) I hate pain, I love pain, and I can't make up my mind
24) I dream of dreams that can not be
25) hate myself because I hate myself
26) I yearn for touch I can not feel
27) I eat the wrong foods, at the wrong amounts, at the wrong times
28) I sleep the wrong hours, the wrong amounts, at the wrong times
29) I constantly lapse into negative thoughts
30) I can not ever be loved indefinatly.
31) my parents never loved me, never cared, and I am still looking for a daddy
32)
So, reasons why I suck and hate myself:
1) I take the emotion out of life with my cold analytical observations
2) I take the rational out of my irrational emotion
3) I have nasty little habits that are harder than hell to break
4) I can suck the life out of anyone
5) I have impulse control issues
6) I hide what I shouldn't, say what I shouldn't, do what I shouldn't
7) I can't cook, hate cooking.
8) It is harder than hell to get me off.
9) I have obsessive compulsive tendencies
10) I like my habits
11) I am dislexic
12) I have brain damage
13) I have no visual memory and no short term memory
14) I have a stomach disease that eats my stomach, causing eating disorders
15) I have a degenerative back disorder, operation necissary in 10 years...crippled somewhat
16) I am a terrible driver
17) I am tone deaf, read lips a lot
18) Everyone I am with dumps my ass like a sack of potatoes
19) I suffer from depression and panic attacks
20) I have genital herpes which I must take valtrex every fucking day for the rest of my pitiful existence
21) I am treated as diseased because of my herpes, denied sex, look at differently
22) I am insecure, I am afraid, I am nervous because of my past
23) I hate pain, I love pain, and I can't make up my mind
24) I dream of dreams that can not be
25) hate myself because I hate myself
26) I yearn for touch I can not feel
27) I eat the wrong foods, at the wrong amounts, at the wrong times
28) I sleep the wrong hours, the wrong amounts, at the wrong times
29) I constantly lapse into negative thoughts
30) I can not ever be loved indefinatly.
31) my parents never loved me, never cared, and I am still looking for a daddy
32)
I will try to going to try to put some positive spins on some of the items:
1) That is your view on life. Just because it is analytical observations does not make it bad.
2) So you are totally irrational. Some the great people in history were like that. Eistien for one. That dude knew how to party.
3) Just because they are nasty doesn't mean you should break them. As long as they don't hurt you or the ones you love.
4) Really... That is some great blowjob skills.
5) So what if you are impulsive. Sometimes your gut instinct is the correct.
6) I say be who you are and nobody else.
7) You can't cook, so find someone who likes to cook and bingo, instant friendship
8) Orgasims are not everything, just have fun during sex.
9) We all have those.
10) As you should. Like things about yourself. Embrace it all.
11) So was Einstien.
12) So does Steven Hawkings
13) Cool, you will read things over and over again and enjoy them each time.
14) Okay, I don't have one for this one
15) Steven Hawkings - Wheelchair... You will be in good company is all I am saying.
16) You can't be good at everything. I can't park.
17) So was Bethoven.
18) That is their problem not yours. If they can't deal with you, they are not worth it.
19) So do most people, they just don't like to amdit to it.
20) People with diabetis need insulin. You should be so lucky.
21) Again, that is their problem not yours.
22) Don't worry about your past. It is in the past. You can change the present and create your future.
23) Okay... I don't have one here
24) So do most people. Like winning the lottery, or flying without wings. Focus on the goal that you can achieve.
25) Nothing for this one... but don't hate yourself.
26) We all want that touch too. You are not alone.
27) So what, you are still beautiful on the inside.
28) Again so what. Sleep is good for the body and mind. Get it when you can.
29) The negative thoughts make us sure we are not out of touch with reality. But then again always having negative thoughts do the same thing.
30) Yes you can. Your baby will always love you. As long as you always love him.
31) Yeah, so don't be like them. Love something, someone. And I am sure they are proud of you on some level
Okay... enough preaching.
Do me a favor. Write a list just as long with your good qualities. Do it now so that you don't forget.
I hope you get out of this funk. Cute sad girls make me sad.
Have a great day!
We love you!