cruella

time for a new blog..
this one may be a little emo as I'm having a "I hate myself day"
which is very very rare for me as I'm usually always on a natural high!!

basicly it boils down too I'm horny but I don't want to hook up with my neighbour anymore as he's too clingy and wants a relationship..

There is Tacoma who is amazing in bed.. but lives in Tacoma and wants me to move there and says he can get me a tattooing apprenticeship.. hmm

And there is Shain who is visiting in a week! which I'm very excited about!! but confused at the same time as I wish I was more on my feet and organised.

I wish I was more outgoing..

I am in alot of ways ie nude modelling I'm very comfortable with and I'm sick of flaky photographers atm!! I want a people to stick to plans specially when I'm depending on the money from the modelling jobs!! and thats another thing I need a friggin real job.. I have a shit tone of experience but noone gets back to me this is totally fucked!!

I'm still a little sick, my step dad who is in the middle of a devorse with my mum keeps trying to add me on FB which is figgin odd then sends me an abusing message on there for not adding him! personally I still find him creepy as hell from the time I used his computer when I was about 13 and saw he had pics of me in my bikini on there and just close ups of my boobs!! I always covered up at home after that! and have never
told anyone!!!

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