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I called Amy and she's with Jesse. At first I thought it was Jessie Brennan, and was really happy for her. But it was another Jesse. I'm still happy I suppose, I always kinda figured they'd hook up at some point. I'm grateful that she found someone that can be good for her.
I just don't know how I feel, though. I want to be happy for her. There's this little void in my heart that's suddenly deepened inside. Now I can't sleep and I'm supposed to work a double tomorrow.
I don't know if visiting is such a good idea now. I really want to see her and Lindsey, but I also know it's possible that I could get hurt. If that were to happen, I could see things only getting worse. I have to give up on this... but why can't I stop? I think about her probably 95% of the time. Wonder if she's okay, wishing I could hold her. Well, she's doing good, holding her is out.
I wish I knew what to do to get over this.