crossover

Ughhh everything has become so complicated in life lately. Sorry I haven't been updating (not that many visit me often anyways) ...I've just been lurking around a bit, I've got to much on my mind lately to sit down and update. I'm in a real emotional bend here, I know what I have to do in this situation but everytime I even start to think about acting on it I feel like balling. I'm torn between what I want and what I know I have to do, and that really sucks.

My band also played the worst fucking show we've ever played on saturday, it really sucks cause my sister and her boyfriend and her best friend came out to see me play for the first time in 2 years, All the girls in Kittie came to watch, all the guys in Thine Eyes Bleed came to watch, and it was the worst show we've ever had. Our drummers double kick snapped and is completely fucked beyond all repair during our first song... so he can't keep time with himself for the gig, then his drum monitor litterally blows up, so he can't even keep time with the rest of us, it was so sloppy and out of time. And that just ontop of everything just makes me feel like never getting out of bed again