***Sassie, I'm just venting and getting things off my chest. Please don't get upset.***
Some people messaged and commented wishing the best for Sassie and I. I want to thank you for that, because this is definitely a difficult time. I don't think I'm making things any better by being how I am right now. To keep my mind off things, I've been going out hanging out with friends (one of which is going through a divorce right now too), or just hanging out by myself in restaurants, malls or my parents (band practice space in basement, so I play). But in being out a lot, Sassie feels that I'm being an asshole. I know it, she just hasn't said it. Eventually she'll understand that it's hard for me to do this too.
She was my life for 5+ years and it's coming to end which is something very unexpected. Coming to an end because I can't look at her the same way anymore. It was a bunch of little stuff causing the temporary separation, then something major happened (the very next day) which pretty much brought on the end (AKA divorce). It's not my place to state what specifically happened between Sunday to Monday. But there's a handful of my SG friends that know what happened (and 2, one being Sassie, of which it involves). Separation or not, NOT FUCKING COOL. I shake and get very upset just thinking about what happened. Hell, the first day she was gone, I fucking cried for an hour and threw up a little from being so upset.
So, if present day me could go back and tell Croft from 3 months ago what was going to happen. I would have said "Yeah, right!" Some of you probably think that I'm retarded. Mainly due to the fact that I am losing the biggest hottie I've ever been with and probably ever will be with. I see all sorts of dudes out there that would kill for a chance to be with her. I don't blame em. She's beautiful. Not just physically but she's one of the smartest people I know. I'll never run across another like her. Hopefully after we're divorced, settled in our new, separate lives, we can be friends like we were when we first knew each other. Those were some truly great times.
Speaking for great times, go check out Sassie's new self-shot super awesome nudie extravaganza.
Her Middle Name Was Boom
Some people messaged and commented wishing the best for Sassie and I. I want to thank you for that, because this is definitely a difficult time. I don't think I'm making things any better by being how I am right now. To keep my mind off things, I've been going out hanging out with friends (one of which is going through a divorce right now too), or just hanging out by myself in restaurants, malls or my parents (band practice space in basement, so I play). But in being out a lot, Sassie feels that I'm being an asshole. I know it, she just hasn't said it. Eventually she'll understand that it's hard for me to do this too.
She was my life for 5+ years and it's coming to end which is something very unexpected. Coming to an end because I can't look at her the same way anymore. It was a bunch of little stuff causing the temporary separation, then something major happened (the very next day) which pretty much brought on the end (AKA divorce). It's not my place to state what specifically happened between Sunday to Monday. But there's a handful of my SG friends that know what happened (and 2, one being Sassie, of which it involves). Separation or not, NOT FUCKING COOL. I shake and get very upset just thinking about what happened. Hell, the first day she was gone, I fucking cried for an hour and threw up a little from being so upset.
So, if present day me could go back and tell Croft from 3 months ago what was going to happen. I would have said "Yeah, right!" Some of you probably think that I'm retarded. Mainly due to the fact that I am losing the biggest hottie I've ever been with and probably ever will be with. I see all sorts of dudes out there that would kill for a chance to be with her. I don't blame em. She's beautiful. Not just physically but she's one of the smartest people I know. I'll never run across another like her. Hopefully after we're divorced, settled in our new, separate lives, we can be friends like we were when we first knew each other. Those were some truly great times.
Speaking for great times, go check out Sassie's new self-shot super awesome nudie extravaganza.
Her Middle Name Was Boom
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all will better in time im sure 