My job is slowly stealing my soul. I find less and less joy Monday through Friday, 8 AM to 5 PM. Most of my day is spent driving. I use to love driving. Now I hate it because of this. My poor car is all fucked up because of all the driving and from living in it (pretty much). I want a nice car with better gas mileage. I have a 1998 Toyota Corolla with the original paint job (ruby red, which is a soft paint, so it's scratched to hell). It burns a quart of oil ever 2500 miles (bad). I get 20 to 23 MPG. I use to get 30, but that might be due to the fact that there's "up to 10% ethanol" in the gas now. It could be worse. I could not have Sassie, I could be living with my parents (or on the streets), I could be stuck in a worse paying dead end job as opposed to the dead end job I am currently in.
I just want to be happy.
I really want to do photography full time because I love it doing it. I love doing the photoshopping stuff. Problem is that everyone does it and can do it. I know not literally everyone does it, but you get what I mean. So there's no room for me there.
I'd like to do my band full time, or ANY band that I dig full time. But that doesn't look to be happen with the band I'm currently in because one member has fallen into the depths of personal life. I, myself, have done that from time to time too. But I never let it effect the band, but he has. So I don't see it working too much longer. I'm trying to get into two other bands right now, one as a second guitarist, and one as a vocalist (and by vocals, i mean growling and yelling, I can't sing that well when asked to). But I just don't see making it a full time living seeing as the music industrial is fucked.
I've also seriously considered getting a business loan, finding a good place to open a shop, and opening a record/clothing store. Vinyl mostly, but CDs and music DVDs as well. As far as clothing, maybe instead of getting the typical stuff, I'd get stuff from local clothing designers and stuff from indie clothing companies online. But what if it fails? I'm screwed.
I don't know what I want to do anymore.
I'm 25 and I'm already having a "mid-life crisis". Does this mean I'll be dead by 50?
I just want to be happy.
I really want to do photography full time because I love it doing it. I love doing the photoshopping stuff. Problem is that everyone does it and can do it. I know not literally everyone does it, but you get what I mean. So there's no room for me there.
I'd like to do my band full time, or ANY band that I dig full time. But that doesn't look to be happen with the band I'm currently in because one member has fallen into the depths of personal life. I, myself, have done that from time to time too. But I never let it effect the band, but he has. So I don't see it working too much longer. I'm trying to get into two other bands right now, one as a second guitarist, and one as a vocalist (and by vocals, i mean growling and yelling, I can't sing that well when asked to). But I just don't see making it a full time living seeing as the music industrial is fucked.
I've also seriously considered getting a business loan, finding a good place to open a shop, and opening a record/clothing store. Vinyl mostly, but CDs and music DVDs as well. As far as clothing, maybe instead of getting the typical stuff, I'd get stuff from local clothing designers and stuff from indie clothing companies online. But what if it fails? I'm screwed.
I don't know what I want to do anymore.
I'm 25 and I'm already having a "mid-life crisis". Does this mean I'll be dead by 50?
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seizure:
Do photography! It cant hurt! Sure alot of people do it but once they dont get anywhere they give up. Dont give up. 
padre:
I'm starting to think its a west coast show