Ok WTF iis up with me not being able to find a job. Its pissing me the fuck off!!! I get the interviews but nothing comes out of it. I know people who quit their jobs and a week later, tthey have another job. Shit I havent been able to find a job for 3 fuckin god damned years and they have a job in a fuckin piece of shit week. How the fuck do they do that? Im also getting that catch 22 when it comes to jobs. They want someone with experience. Well how the fuck do you expect me to get any experience when you wont fuckin hire my ass?

Its getting more and more depressing to look at my email and also looking for a job. I send in resumes and dont get any replies back. Looking for a job also reminds me of the fact that I havent had a damn job in 3 years....thats pretty depressing. Not having a job kinda makes me feel non productive and worthless. I hate this fuckin feeling. It also reminds me of the fact that I had to move away from all my friends and the city I loved calling home...Austin.

Im also going to have to cut down, if not cut out the 1 thing that is keeping me sane through all this. That is going out and hanging out with my friends. As said earlier, all my friends are in Austin. The money is wearing thin. I am not going to have the money any more to drive up there and back and sometimes get a motel to stay at. So the one thing that is keeping me say will be taken away from me as well.

Damn I hate this feeling. [/rant]