Wednesday Dec 11, 2002

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I shouldn't even be awake right now, let alone still drinking.
It seems I always have to make things more difficult than they need to be.

Why is that?
Why do I consistently sabotage myself?
tara81:
i do the same thing.

love the pain?
fallen1carus:
because you're lonely and in a vicious cycle with a drug that gives you a temporary numbness from the horrible, horrible pain of being alive.

and because there's nothing else to do. you can only beat off for so long.

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