Ugh. Feeling too fat to continue the attempts at creating a set right now. 
I know you don't have to be a size 2 hourglass to be beautiful, but there is a point where I just feel less attractive. And less healthy. I think I want to be healthy more than anything else. If I don't feel healthy, I don't feel beautiful, and how can I expect others to see it if I don't? I wish my habits were better, but every time I try to change them I end up forgetting or giving up or putting it off. I don't mind being plump--I just don't like being THIS big. I think I might take it up with my doctor... Between work and school, I really don't have time for extra exercise, other than going dancing on the weekend. And lately, I haven't been doing much dancing at the parties I go to either. I just feel gross, and depressed knowing there's nothing I can do about it at the immediate moment. Unless I start sawing off bodyparts. Which would be messy. *sigh* What to do, what to do? I started keeping a food diary in high school, and I lost 50lbs while I had it... Maybe I'll try that again. >.>
I know you don't have to be a size 2 hourglass to be beautiful, but there is a point where I just feel less attractive. And less healthy. I think I want to be healthy more than anything else. If I don't feel healthy, I don't feel beautiful, and how can I expect others to see it if I don't? I wish my habits were better, but every time I try to change them I end up forgetting or giving up or putting it off. I don't mind being plump--I just don't like being THIS big. I think I might take it up with my doctor... Between work and school, I really don't have time for extra exercise, other than going dancing on the weekend. And lately, I haven't been doing much dancing at the parties I go to either. I just feel gross, and depressed knowing there's nothing I can do about it at the immediate moment. Unless I start sawing off bodyparts. Which would be messy. *sigh* What to do, what to do? I started keeping a food diary in high school, and I lost 50lbs while I had it... Maybe I'll try that again. >.>
Instead of trying to change everything maybe just focus on one thing. Each day pick just one little thing you want to do different and focus on that. That way you do not get over whelmed with everything.