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crimsondeath

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Wednesday Oct 20, 2004

Oct 20, 2004
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... BLAH...
I've got nothing worth mentioning, nothing new & exciting to share, I'm still dealin' with my own personal demons, Theres still a war waging within my head, This Okie existence of mine is pretty lonesome, But its my own daoing, Going to work & Coming home is my routine, It seems Hiding from the world & Sticking to the shadows is what I do best, My anxiety doesn't flare up when I'm alone, There isn't much to fear when you hang out by yourself... Well except for when it gets too fuckin' quiet and you cant keep those demons at bay, when they force you to see the things that have come & gone, when I'm subjected to the memories that I wish I could forget or at least move past...
Just once when it's all quiet and the demons begin to stir within' my head I wish they'd slip up and show me things worth stickin' around for, I wish they'd replay those moments that I'd love to hang onto, because to be completely honest...
I'm gettin' sick of feeling this way, I'm gettin' tired of hiding amongst the shadows, I'm tired of being fine one moment and then the next I'm emotionally drained and void of all life...
"FUCK MY ANXIETY" is something I want to SCREAM, Fuck those demons that play me like I'm a Rock Em' Sock Em' Robot thats always gettin' my block knocked off...
I wish it were as simple as saying "FUCK IT, GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!" I wish it was that easy to overcome the bullshite that plagues me, I wish it was that easy to step out from the shadows and join the real world. Because I'm gettin' tired of bringin' the people I care the most about down, I'm gettin' tired of feelin' like I'm nothing...
BLAH....
zaftigg:
if you ever get lonely. if you ever get lost in oklahoma. Dude. Just remember. Oklahoma is OK.

cl0ck
Oct 22, 2004
masaba:
have big plans for halloween?
Oct 24, 2004

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