This is going to be my last post for a couple of days, so I appologize if it takes me awhile to reply...
Tonight at midnight i have to go to the airport and pickup 2 of my uncles and then at 4am were gonna start drivin' to OK... I'll hopefully be able to start movin' into my apt. by saturday evening or sunday morning... And even though I said I didn't want to go back to work until the 1st week of July, I just might have to change that... I'm gonna be in a bad place for awhile and I'm gonna have to find shit to keep myself busy... Too busy to think... Any suggestions?!?!?!
It's funny... For the longest time I was dyin' to get out of this place and simply start over. And all it took was one person to completely turn that around, because now I'm dyin' at the thought of leaving. I'm dyin' at the thought of having to say my good-bye's... Theres nothing good about them, nothing at all... I dont know how I'll be able to make the drive tomorrow, how can anyone expect me to drive 21 hrs when I'm not the one that wants to leave...
I really dont know what I could've ever done to deserve having Beth in my life...
She is by far the most amazing person I've ever encountered. I wish that she gave herself the credit she deserves, because shes going to take world by storm one of these days. And she wont be limited by a certain medium of art, because her talent is truly limitless...
Even though were going to get through this and fly out to see each other, I'm going to miss her so much... Her smell, her touch, her eyes, that damn infectious smile, the way she looks when she sleeps, how cute she looks as she puts on her makeup, waking up beside her, going to sleep beside her.... I'm going to miss everything and I'd love nothing more than to push fast forward and jump to the moments when we'll be albe to be together...
And even though I'm dying right now, I wouldn't trade having her in my life for anything in the world... I'll forever be grateful and eternally in the debt of who/whatever is responsible.
Tonight at midnight i have to go to the airport and pickup 2 of my uncles and then at 4am were gonna start drivin' to OK... I'll hopefully be able to start movin' into my apt. by saturday evening or sunday morning... And even though I said I didn't want to go back to work until the 1st week of July, I just might have to change that... I'm gonna be in a bad place for awhile and I'm gonna have to find shit to keep myself busy... Too busy to think... Any suggestions?!?!?!
It's funny... For the longest time I was dyin' to get out of this place and simply start over. And all it took was one person to completely turn that around, because now I'm dyin' at the thought of leaving. I'm dyin' at the thought of having to say my good-bye's... Theres nothing good about them, nothing at all... I dont know how I'll be able to make the drive tomorrow, how can anyone expect me to drive 21 hrs when I'm not the one that wants to leave...
I really dont know what I could've ever done to deserve having Beth in my life...
She is by far the most amazing person I've ever encountered. I wish that she gave herself the credit she deserves, because shes going to take world by storm one of these days. And she wont be limited by a certain medium of art, because her talent is truly limitless...
Even though were going to get through this and fly out to see each other, I'm going to miss her so much... Her smell, her touch, her eyes, that damn infectious smile, the way she looks when she sleeps, how cute she looks as she puts on her makeup, waking up beside her, going to sleep beside her.... I'm going to miss everything and I'd love nothing more than to push fast forward and jump to the moments when we'll be albe to be together...
And even though I'm dying right now, I wouldn't trade having her in my life for anything in the world... I'll forever be grateful and eternally in the debt of who/whatever is responsible.
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