criminalsin

So it's been the most exhausting and heartbreaking day of my life ... Since my last blog my husband and I tried to work things out ... This didn't go well ... He never had time for me, he would drop me for any thing including to give someone he didnt really like a ride to work or some stupid bullshit like that ... So today he went to his friends housewarming party and I really wouldnt have minded except for he had promised me he would spend time with me ... He double booked himself and simply said to me that he wanted to hang with Travis more. There was no apology, nothing ... So I was upset and then we had a fight about him never being there for me ... Then came the bit that I still can't handle. He said that he didnt want to be with me anymore, he didnt see us ever being happy together again and that he wasnt willing to try. He said we were over and then he left me ... Now I feel about as big as a blade of grass and pretty fucken worthless ... If I had a gun I'd shoot myself but I don't. So please someone just kill me, because without him I have no-one, no family and because of him no friends. I gave up everything for him and he doesn't want me so I'm lost.