blah blah blah, yakkity shmakkity. how about a nice cup of OJ.
I need to make new friends. not that my current circle is undesireably, I just have the need to bring some new people into my life. if you live near me and want to go and have fun somewhere, don't be shy... cause I won't be.....
shyness was something that I needed to overcome coming out of high school. I think I did a pretty good job. My dad would always tell me that he was so crippled by his shyness that he could barely function in groups, let alone public. I'm so glad I didn't inherit that from him. Generally relations with my father have been taxed in the last few days. I really have a hard time respecting the old man. I know it makes me sound like a joerk, but he's so pathetic. he graduated college and did nothing with his degree. now he's poor. he gives me advice on things that he failed at. I can't believe I'm 24 and still harbouring all this teenage resentment for my dad. i don't feel right about it, but I can't really help it either. it's not just the money thing... if I could look at him and generally see a happy person with a happy life I would feel much better. he just sedates himself everynight with a mirriad of perscription drugs for depression, back pain, muscle spasms, what have you. I think everybody looks at thier parents sometimes and just thinks "oh god not me, don't go wrong where these people did." I feel like my dad lost the Odeipal stuggle (which involves more than sleeping with your mother.)
crap. I hate resenting m,y dad. I try to just have normal relations with him, but I have such a hard time respecting him at all.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. I can't wait untill school starts. I'm ready to go at it. I feel sufficantly rested and relaxed. I crave the busy day to day life on campus. I'm goping into this year with a better attitude than previous ones. I'm going to just try and make as many friends as possible, and get really good grades.
Since I started college I have stated my desired goal: to use school as a springboard out of Buffalo. Now I('m not so sure I want to leave. I kind of like it here now. I think the change has more to do with my mindset than Buffalo it self. I'm happier than I've been in many months, and I feel like my life is in a good place. This is a drastic change over last year, when i just did alot of bitching about not being where I want to be with my life. I still see room for improvement, but things could be alot worse. at least I wasn't one of those people who just bitched about being miserable and never did anything about it. I'm living proof that things can get better, and iut feels good.
I need to make new friends. not that my current circle is undesireably, I just have the need to bring some new people into my life. if you live near me and want to go and have fun somewhere, don't be shy... cause I won't be.....
shyness was something that I needed to overcome coming out of high school. I think I did a pretty good job. My dad would always tell me that he was so crippled by his shyness that he could barely function in groups, let alone public. I'm so glad I didn't inherit that from him. Generally relations with my father have been taxed in the last few days. I really have a hard time respecting the old man. I know it makes me sound like a joerk, but he's so pathetic. he graduated college and did nothing with his degree. now he's poor. he gives me advice on things that he failed at. I can't believe I'm 24 and still harbouring all this teenage resentment for my dad. i don't feel right about it, but I can't really help it either. it's not just the money thing... if I could look at him and generally see a happy person with a happy life I would feel much better. he just sedates himself everynight with a mirriad of perscription drugs for depression, back pain, muscle spasms, what have you. I think everybody looks at thier parents sometimes and just thinks "oh god not me, don't go wrong where these people did." I feel like my dad lost the Odeipal stuggle (which involves more than sleeping with your mother.)
crap. I hate resenting m,y dad. I try to just have normal relations with him, but I have such a hard time respecting him at all.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. I can't wait untill school starts. I'm ready to go at it. I feel sufficantly rested and relaxed. I crave the busy day to day life on campus. I'm goping into this year with a better attitude than previous ones. I'm going to just try and make as many friends as possible, and get really good grades.
Since I started college I have stated my desired goal: to use school as a springboard out of Buffalo. Now I('m not so sure I want to leave. I kind of like it here now. I think the change has more to do with my mindset than Buffalo it self. I'm happier than I've been in many months, and I feel like my life is in a good place. This is a drastic change over last year, when i just did alot of bitching about not being where I want to be with my life. I still see room for improvement, but things could be alot worse. at least I wasn't one of those people who just bitched about being miserable and never did anything about it. I'm living proof that things can get better, and iut feels good.
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redfirefaery:
that is a very good question. maybe he was dropped on his head as an infant.
yeknomyknuf:
I'm so glad one of my online friends is writing about how he's happy! I feel the same way about my mom to an extent of how you are with your dad. She's been helping me in ways that aren't monetary lately though so I'm starting to appreciate her a lot more. Your dad should try antidepressants, I love em myself! Is that you who signed up on Catch27?