cretinfamily

i look around at all these faded and jaded people
looking to the stars
looking to god
the grass
the trees
reading palms and psalms
trying to find some answer
and the reason for reasoning
being called freaks
crying into their coffee
ruining the morning cigarette with their tears
wondering what is real
and if anything really matters
and if it doesn't why do we...
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You kissed my lips and cloaked them in blue. you took the entirety of what i had or maybe i gave it to you. i can't quite place the details.
afterwards i lie there lifeless and still you went on seemingly as though i was aware of your every word and movement. you would speak to me as if it was completely rational that the...
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i don't need you to love me, but wouldn't it be so sweet if you did? what if while saying my name or seeing my face your stomach did flips and your heart would threaten to beat out of your chest? wouldn't it be nice if just by holding my body you could fall asleep...how i would love to be your sleeping pill.
maybe we...
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thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so i have this wish list...and some really, really, really sweeet and thoughtful person bought me two gifts!!

this is just to thank you so very very much!

i also just recieved quasi_seans book in the mail today..and for those of you who don't know who he is..go check him out....
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awake at 3:30 in the am, lighting up another cigarette. tried to drowned myself in the pages of my latest copeland soft cover. reading, trying to doff my real life and bring into existence this work of fiction that has captivated me.
however tonight as i lay reading, the words become just words.....not bringing me into my land of sleepy content and fairy tale dreams....
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in the background an old hank williams song about heartache is playing as i take her aside and tell her my concerns about the bruises that covered her legs and the man dictating her every move.
the look on her face gave away nothing...it was as if i had been speaking of the rain that had been falling outside the window. all of a sudden...
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so i updated my profile pic...this is what happens with photoshop and wayyy too much time on your hands.
i had such a great week with jimmy, i'm sorry that it's ending so soon.
tuesday will be back to normal....but normal isn't so bad.
i have absolutely nothing to say.....haha sorry bout that!!
so maybe i post some lyrics from a good song....hmm...yes that is...
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and love takes so much time
so much time
so much to get it right
and if your touch could be just a bit more sincere
and if my heart could just stay in one place
so many questions i can't answer
and maybe just maybe we'll make it through this time
and maybe we'll have that happy ending
the one we always dreamed about...
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falling with you
away from reality
feeling your breath on my neck
your hands on my hips
whispering in my ear
heat taking over
hands moving, exploring my body
fingers tracing my lips
teeth on my neck
my head is swimming
knees are weak
breathing is shallow
skin is electric with every touch
a moan escapes my mouth
your lips find mine
tasting your mouth...
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have you noticed the shifting winds lately. i talked to you yesterday....don't think you heard my words. i'm wondering about this game we play. pretending everything is ok...... so scared to think anything could be wrong. your little girl has grown up and now she is screaming for you to let her go.
i've been hiding my eyes from your glances. i've been looking at...
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