cretinfamily

i think i'm serving life in this prison
doomed to see these sunny days
sentenced to birds constantly singing the same damn song
all the while i resent it all
and the sun puts out this false perception of cheery days
days that can't possibly go wrong
for the sun is here to warm your soul
why can't it lift the lead from my chest
why do i stare wide eyed into it
i've been told it can make you go blind
and if i go blind will i forget your face
will i forget the empty eyes that directed my innocence into shame
and deaf what can make me go deaf to the ache that keeps
screaming in my ear that it just needs to feel better for a second
and what's wrong with feeling good for just a second
one second where i can't remember
one second where it just doesn't hurt so damn much
one second where i can just be ok