You kissed my lips and cloaked them in blue. you took the entirety of what i had or maybe i gave it to you. i can't quite place the details.
afterwards i lie there lifeless and still you went on seemingly as though i was aware of your every word and movement. you would speak to me as if it was completely rational that the conversation never once held my voice.
you would sit in front of me and eat your dinner, always asking if i was hungry, never minding the fact that i never answered. i suppose even the stench of decay could not ruin your appetite....as though the smell never infiltrated your nostrils.
you would smile and joke and my wide, blank stare you always took as shock to your crudeness.
a funny thing about death, some think that as we die our energies disperse and we are simply no more. i have found however that a type of consciousness still lies within us, maybe that is the elusive soul finally getting it's chance to live. i seem to know my surroundings, i see people coming and going or maybe i just feel them going...i do tend to feel emptier all the time. these people seem not to be aware of me as you are. they see my corpse staring into nothingness and fail to see the importance of my life...who i was...who i became.
i think that this fact would sadden and fill me with a type of fear if it wasn't for your undaunted...slightly oblivious love. you seem so happy with your lifeless girl. i know you will never leave me. you will continue to go about you life as if i was fully cognizant.
you will smile and kiss my chilled cheek, lay beside me, your head on my still chest and pretend to listen to me breathe. you will look up at me always and tell me good night and promise to see me in the morning.
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ok so i just found out that i'm losing my sg account for a bit cause we are super broke...bleh.....i should have it back by friday...i hope...sorry for the short notice guys
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update: someone has saved my poor ass...thank you so very much whoever you are!! much love is sent your way...
afterwards i lie there lifeless and still you went on seemingly as though i was aware of your every word and movement. you would speak to me as if it was completely rational that the conversation never once held my voice.
you would sit in front of me and eat your dinner, always asking if i was hungry, never minding the fact that i never answered. i suppose even the stench of decay could not ruin your appetite....as though the smell never infiltrated your nostrils.
you would smile and joke and my wide, blank stare you always took as shock to your crudeness.
a funny thing about death, some think that as we die our energies disperse and we are simply no more. i have found however that a type of consciousness still lies within us, maybe that is the elusive soul finally getting it's chance to live. i seem to know my surroundings, i see people coming and going or maybe i just feel them going...i do tend to feel emptier all the time. these people seem not to be aware of me as you are. they see my corpse staring into nothingness and fail to see the importance of my life...who i was...who i became.
i think that this fact would sadden and fill me with a type of fear if it wasn't for your undaunted...slightly oblivious love. you seem so happy with your lifeless girl. i know you will never leave me. you will continue to go about you life as if i was fully cognizant.
you will smile and kiss my chilled cheek, lay beside me, your head on my still chest and pretend to listen to me breathe. you will look up at me always and tell me good night and promise to see me in the morning.
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ok so i just found out that i'm losing my sg account for a bit cause we are super broke...bleh.....i should have it back by friday...i hope...sorry for the short notice guys
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update: someone has saved my poor ass...thank you so very much whoever you are!! much love is sent your way...
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Glad your still on SG. I would've missed you!