cretinfamily

i wonder about funerals....and open caskets. i saw jimmy's grandfather but it wasn't him. it was only a shell....it almost looked like him but was more like a wax model.
his eyes were closed and his hands were on his lap overlapping. his hands were the only part of him that looked real. they still seemed to hold the years that he had lived. they...
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......better update coming soon to a journal near you.....

hey! you.....yes you there with the mullet, lose the shirt!

we just got back in town. we had to travel to arkansas for the funeral. the trip was long and we are tired and both are emotionally drained.....jimmy from the loss of his grandpa and me from trying to hold everything together in the midst of all of this. jimmy seems to be doing a bit better but can still use all of the support...
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hey guys...bit of bad news....JIMMYRAMONE my dear husband, found out that his grandpa passed away last night . It was sudden and totally unexpected. He was really close to his grandpa and will miss him so very much...so if you get a chance stop buy his journal and drop him a few lines of love.

i look around at all these faded and jaded people
looking to the stars
looking to god
the grass
the trees
reading palms and psalms
trying to find some answer
and the reason for reasoning
being called freaks
crying into their coffee
ruining the morning cigarette with their tears
wondering what is real
and if anything really matters
and if it doesn't why do we...
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You kissed my lips and cloaked them in blue. you took the entirety of what i had or maybe i gave it to you. i can't quite place the details.
afterwards i lie there lifeless and still you went on seemingly as though i was aware of your every word and movement. you would speak to me as if it was completely rational that the...
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i don't need you to love me, but wouldn't it be so sweet if you did? what if while saying my name or seeing my face your stomach did flips and your heart would threaten to beat out of your chest? wouldn't it be nice if just by holding my body you could fall asleep...how i would love to be your sleeping pill.
maybe we...
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thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so i have this wish list...and some really, really, really sweeet and thoughtful person bought me two gifts!!

this is just to thank you so very very much!

i also just recieved quasi_seans book in the mail today..and for those of you who don't know who he is..go check him out....
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awake at 3:30 in the am, lighting up another cigarette. tried to drowned myself in the pages of my latest copeland soft cover. reading, trying to doff my real life and bring into existence this work of fiction that has captivated me.
however tonight as i lay reading, the words become just words.....not bringing me into my land of sleepy content and fairy tale dreams....
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in the background an old hank williams song about heartache is playing as i take her aside and tell her my concerns about the bruises that covered her legs and the man dictating her every move.
the look on her face gave away nothing...it was as if i had been speaking of the rain that had been falling outside the window. all of a sudden...
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so i updated my profile pic...this is what happens with photoshop and wayyy too much time on your hands.
i had such a great week with jimmy, i'm sorry that it's ending so soon.
tuesday will be back to normal....but normal isn't so bad.
i have absolutely nothing to say.....haha sorry bout that!!
so maybe i post some lyrics from a good song....hmm...yes that is...
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