Well... things are still kinda crazy around here.
Friday we picked up Smokey's ashes. I'm having a custom urn made for her and it should be here within a month. I'm excited about it.
I did my best not to cry when we picked her up... holding back was hard. I just set her on my lap and started at the white cardboard box that holds her ashes with a sticker saying "Your Beloved Pet" How spooky is that.
When we got home.. I put it on top on the entertainment center.
Dad came home around 5-ish.. and he picked it up and set it on his lap while he sat in his chair and said.. This is where she belongs.. and he started to cry. My dad isn't the emotional type. But Smokey got the best of everyone. She was so loved.
And that night when I slept.. I swear.. I felt her walking on my comforter. She's her... no denying it. I felt her walking. And she even brushed against my face and I remember pushing her away because I was sleeping and she was annoying me... almost got to the point where I was gonna yell at my mom to get her out of my room. I woke up thinking.. what just happened.
But I am glad she is here. She's here along with my grandfather.
I swear.. it's the little things I miss about her.
This is gonna take some time to get through. It's painful when people say stuff like.. it's just a pet. Come on now.. Smokey is a member of the family, one that's been with us for 16 years who loved each one of us and we loved her back more than anything else in the world and to have someone like that not around any more.. it's painful. You can't just throw that away.
I'll look through some old pics of her. She was a tiny kitten
And I'm sick with allergies.. again... like the kind of feeling I got when Smokey would be around me too much.
Friday we picked up Smokey's ashes. I'm having a custom urn made for her and it should be here within a month. I'm excited about it.
I did my best not to cry when we picked her up... holding back was hard. I just set her on my lap and started at the white cardboard box that holds her ashes with a sticker saying "Your Beloved Pet" How spooky is that.
When we got home.. I put it on top on the entertainment center.
Dad came home around 5-ish.. and he picked it up and set it on his lap while he sat in his chair and said.. This is where she belongs.. and he started to cry. My dad isn't the emotional type. But Smokey got the best of everyone. She was so loved.
And that night when I slept.. I swear.. I felt her walking on my comforter. She's her... no denying it. I felt her walking. And she even brushed against my face and I remember pushing her away because I was sleeping and she was annoying me... almost got to the point where I was gonna yell at my mom to get her out of my room. I woke up thinking.. what just happened.
But I am glad she is here. She's here along with my grandfather.
I swear.. it's the little things I miss about her.
This is gonna take some time to get through. It's painful when people say stuff like.. it's just a pet. Come on now.. Smokey is a member of the family, one that's been with us for 16 years who loved each one of us and we loved her back more than anything else in the world and to have someone like that not around any more.. it's painful. You can't just throw that away.
I'll look through some old pics of her. She was a tiny kitten
And I'm sick with allergies.. again... like the kind of feeling I got when Smokey would be around me too much.
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metaleric:
Where ya been? I can't drag myself to the gym if I know you won't be there. 
effstop:
Sorry to hear kiddo. Losing pets sucks. My parents had to give my kitty away while i was in tech school. i miss him, and think about him a lot. fortunatly time heals those wounds. 