I need a life.
I feel so blah and lonely and depressed.
It's spring here for real but I don't really feel like I can fully enjoy it.
I just feel so out of sorts and lost.
I just need some real friends and some time to myself I think. I'm trying and Eric is being super helpful. I told him how I was feeling and he's been helping with the baby alot and we've been trying to get out more.
It's just so hard to make friends with a baby attached to you at all times and without being able to invite people over.
I tried to look for local mom's groups on facebook and meetup.com but there really isn't a good fit for me.
There's 1 mom's group in my town and their description states they are a CHRISTIAN mom's group (
) that aims to stay around 30 members and they already have 36.
There are 2 other mom's groups about 45 mins away. But, again most of the members are super overbearing christian or have older kids and they meet at freaking 10 am
My kid doesn't even wake up til 9:30 or 10.
Otherwise there are hiking groups that meet at 8 or 9 am and take long hikes that the baby wouldn't be able to handle. Or 20 something's groups that do fun stuff late at night that i couldn't possibly do with the baby or leave the baby at home all that time for.
I just want to be able to take some time to do fun stuff on my own. Maybe a dance class or a gardening group. Or just a couple friends around my age that are not snarky bitches or ridiculous flakes and understand what it's like to have a kid. Is that so much to ask?
Ugh, being a mother is not even that hard. Just being stuck with motherhood for 18+ years is.
In other less depressing news... I have new opalite plugs.. from the flea market for $5
I feel so blah and lonely and depressed.
It's spring here for real but I don't really feel like I can fully enjoy it.
I just feel so out of sorts and lost.
I just need some real friends and some time to myself I think. I'm trying and Eric is being super helpful. I told him how I was feeling and he's been helping with the baby alot and we've been trying to get out more.
It's just so hard to make friends with a baby attached to you at all times and without being able to invite people over.
I tried to look for local mom's groups on facebook and meetup.com but there really isn't a good fit for me.
There's 1 mom's group in my town and their description states they are a CHRISTIAN mom's group (
) that aims to stay around 30 members and they already have 36.There are 2 other mom's groups about 45 mins away. But, again most of the members are super overbearing christian or have older kids and they meet at freaking 10 am
My kid doesn't even wake up til 9:30 or 10. Otherwise there are hiking groups that meet at 8 or 9 am and take long hikes that the baby wouldn't be able to handle. Or 20 something's groups that do fun stuff late at night that i couldn't possibly do with the baby or leave the baby at home all that time for.
I just want to be able to take some time to do fun stuff on my own. Maybe a dance class or a gardening group. Or just a couple friends around my age that are not snarky bitches or ridiculous flakes and understand what it's like to have a kid. Is that so much to ask?
Ugh, being a mother is not even that hard. Just being stuck with motherhood for 18+ years is.
In other less depressing news... I have new opalite plugs.. from the flea market for $5
Hang in there... Hope the blahs pass you by soon.